-Blaise Pascal
Promises - Day 9
Promises were meant to be broken. At least, the ones I make to myself. Time and again, these promises served as my emotional armour, one that would protect myself from whatever worldly hurts.
But breaking them meant hurting myself. On one hand, I don't ever want to be hurt again. On the other, I often open myself to hurt, because..friends don't need emotional armour between them. They are each other's emotional armour.
Did I mention that it's times like this that I really wish I could die and stop hurting those around me?
Guess my decision was for the best, and that I made the right one for the long run.
Wean myself away. Cold turkey.
All the better for me. I don't know about him though, but I did what I feel is correct.
Funny how I seem to operate on touchy-feely, instead of thinking. But then again, I have thought it through. If I didn't get to see him so much, then I wouldn't feel this way anymore, and the world could continue in peace. My armour would still be intact, and I would be Maya once more.
Why does my decision make me cry and laugh at the same time?
Maya
Leo
Dragon
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And I don't want the world to see me
I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Strength
Courage, strength, fortitude. Power not arrested in the act of judgement, but passing on to further action, sometimes obstinacy.This is a card of courage and energy.
It represents both the Lion's hot, roaring energy, and the Maiden's steadfast will. The innocent Maiden is unafraid, undaunted, and indomitable. In some cards she opens the lion's mouth, in others she shuts it.
Either way, she proves that inner strength is more powerful than raw physical strength. That forces can be controlled and used to score a victory is very close to the message of the Chariot.
With strength you can control not only the situation, but yourself. It is a card about anger and impulse management, about creative answers, leadership and maintaining one's personal honor. It can also stand for a steadfast friend.
Wishlist
PSP Jewel Door Mod + Skin
Learn to contact juggle professionally
Play DDR well (so that I can lose weight)
Determination in all that I do
Never be hurt again
Be the best at whatever I do
Be happy with what I have
Bluetooth headphones
A good laptop bag (preferbly Crumpler =X)
Likes
Racing
DotA
Arcade games
Hanging out
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Archives
Project Racing Devil
Start: 11 Feb 2008
End: None
Description: Constantly improve myself
Status: Ongoing. I will improve myself...I will not fail you guys
Project SSS
Start: 16th March 2008
End: Tentative mid 2009
Description: Being the first, one and only is really tempting. And then there are my personal reasons..
Project Tuning Gay
Start: End 2008
End: ???
Description: Complete dress-up
Status: Got my card liao..time for dress-up
Project Racing Hearts 2
Start: 20th Feb 2008
End: 29th Feb 2008
Description: FT car, complete dress-up and *ahem*
Status: Completed
Project Racing Hearts 1
Start: 16th Feb 2008
End: 16th Feb 2008
Description: Change car appearance to look identical
Status: Completed
Project Setting
Start: 11 Feb 2008
End: 11 Feb 2008
Description: Change parts as needed
Status: Completed
Project Stock
Start: 10 Feb 2008
End: 10 Feb 2008
Description: Change all parts to stock
Status: Completed