Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Revelations


So last night (basically from 9pm till almost 2am) E.C #2 and I talked, first over phone, then sms and then over phone again.

You'd think I'd be bleeding happiness since we talked so long.

Okay okay, so one of my wishes came true, but it came at a price.

Strangely, this time round I didn't feel..well, okay, I felt something but it wasn't as strong as what happened last time. Did I feel relived? No. But I felt touched and...honestly happy that E.C #2 thought about me (even though it was just once) in that way.

But like I said, love can't be forced. I hope that when E.C #2 reads this (you know, he does..) he knows that I still..love him as a best friend, and while it hurts, it's a kind of a good hurt. To know that (omg sounding so perasan here but it's true, OKAY) I'll least likely to be one of the girls to hurt him in a relationship in the future.

Same goes for E.C. #1. >.< I would never want to hurt him ever again.

Broke my promise not to cry again. But I think I finally said some things that..had to be said. And the way we revealed to each other was just so..emo. I knew that he knew from the start le, but I thought my decision had put him off.

Like I once said to a special someone else "Let me love you from a distance" partially because it was true, and partially because..well, the usual happenings. Girl desperate, will do many things.

>.<

So it was an emotional sms and talk session. Don't get me wrong, the smses would never get deleted unintentionally. Everytime I read them, I get a feeling of wonder and..happiness. Let me live in my fantasy world for just that little bit more.

Hopefully we can hang out sooner or later. Have you figured out why I started this blog? Why I said it coincides with something? And what was with the counting of days?

friends:) Ren Lipz K.C. Team BuL7et Nanaca-Crash