Monday, May 28, 2007

Rewrite

I am a writer, therefore I will write. I will keep writing, even as I bleed, because writing will not leave me.

I am a gamer, therefore I will game. I will keep gaming, even as I cry, because gaming will not leave me.

I am a shooter, therefore I will shoot. I will keep shooting, even as I scream, because shooting will not leave me.

I am a free-beater, therefore I will free-beat. I will keep free-beating, even as I die, because free-beating will not leave me.

~

Asian Kung Fu Generation - リライト

軋んだ想いを吐き出したいのは
存在の証明が他にないから
掴んだはずの僕の未来は
「尊厳」と「自由」で矛盾してるよ

歪んだ残像を消し去りたいのは
自分の限界をそこに見るから
自意識過剰な僕の窓には
去年のカレンダー、日付がないよ

消してリライトして
くだらない超幻想
忘れられぬ存在感を

起死回生リライトして
意味のない想像も
君を成す原動力全身全霊を
くれよ

芽生えてた感情切って泣いて
所詮ただ凡庸知って泣いて
腐った心を、薄汚い嘘を

消してリライトして
くだらない超幻想
忘れられぬ存在感を

起死回生リライトして
意味のない想像も
君を成す原動力全身全霊を
くれよ

~

Asian Kung Fu Generation - ReWrite

Wanting to spew out the jarred thoughts is
Because there’s no other proof of my existence
My future that I should’ve grabbed hold is
Conflicting between “dignity” and “freedom”

Wanting to erase the distorted afterimage is
Because I’ll see my limit there
In the window of the excessively self-conscious me
There are no dates in last year’s calendar

Erase and rewrite
The pointless ultra-fantasy
The unforgettable sense of being

Revive
And rewrite
The meaningless imagination and the driving force that creates you
Give it your whole body and soul

After cutting my feelings that grew, I regret
After realizing that after all, I’m just a mediocrity, I cry

Erase and rewrite the depressed heart and the dirty lie
The pointless ultra-fantasy
The unforgettable sense of being

Revive
And rewrite
The meaningless imagination and the driving force that creates you
Give it your whole body and soul

~

Linkin Park - Leave Out All the Rest - Chorus

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

~

I want to thank everyone for being so supportive of me through the last chapter. You guys have been holding me up (like my crutches when I fell down the other time) and honestly, I don't know what I'd do if I wasn't out with you guys..

Special thanks to (in no particular order):

Ren: Gurl, you are the best. I hope I didn't spoil your birthday celebration! FOREVER NINETEEN GURL! I hope I will always be there for you, like you've always been here for me. Thank you for all your advice, for listening to me, for comforting me, for just being there for me with CK as well. Thank you for knowing to keep me busy when it happened on Friday, else I would have just gone home to brood and end up in a worse state of mind.

Ru: Your advice is invaluable wor. While you didn't not approve of it, you got advise me, and me is really thankful =) We never leave each other XDD

Ice-san and FE-san: YOU TWO ARH. BEST FREE-BEAT BUDDIES FOREVER!!! Thank you for keeping me occupied on Saturdays and Sundays! Ice-san, thanks for seeing me home wor! FE-san, thanks for your advice...I won't give up hope!!! XDDDDDD

Krazy Klique: For all the times you guys have stood by me..have kept me afloat in the (mala~) tsunami..have kept me happy~ You guys I won't leave, this I promise you...

Ruzhi: Thanks dude. Your advice..hurt, but it opened my eyes. I won't forget you =)

Alwin-sama: While we haven't been talking much in like the past few weeks..you have always stood quietly beside me and taught me so much things, not only about TC4, but about life. You have always listened to my rants, and I'm grateful that I have someone like you. You will always have a special place in my heart.

Z.F @ SG: We will be changing names soon, but right now I just call you guys Z.F ba...Typlo-kor, Shawn, Julian-di (btw, thanks Jul-di for stoking my anger. It reminded me that I ought to be angry, and I was grateful that I could feel once more), Drag-di, Mic, Lou-di...all of you from Gamefaqs also...while we haven't been like, together for a lot, the times we had...I won't forget XDDD

I guess that's all for right now...EMO!~ I listening to all the Linkin Park songs Ice-san sent me...Ahh..Balm for the soul. And now I still have hope, because of Philip-san XDDDDDDDDDD

AHHHHHHHHHH OMGGGG I forget to thank Philip-san!!!

PHILIP-SAN!! THANK YOU WOR~ With your age, at least you know a lot more things, can give me advice too, and for that...I'm so grateful =) I hope that..one day, that thing we talked about, can happen. But not right now. Right now I want to be free. I want to go crazy. I want to get back my life; I want to TC4 until I'm crazy, so that I know that I'm living once more...



THANK YOU ALL WOR!~ TT.TT My heart is so cramped now..everyone holding a place in my heart XDDDD

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