%-- PAIN. So farking pain. And I still don't know how to put on the gown for facial XDDD Long time since I went for a facial. This time coz I wasn't in a rush to go anywhere, the lady squeezed out ALL my blackheads. UGH!!! So pain. After that, applied a mask that smelt suspiciously like rojak sauce and Brand's Chicken Essence mixed together. Wah, felt so hungry XDD but a bit revolted that they could actually be putting the stuff on my face. Still got one more facial to go. Hopefully, I can put it not too long from today. Else sure painful experience again. But I relaxed enough to doze a little at the end of the whole thing =D Yay!!! Saturday whole day free..come, let's all celebrate and cry together for those A Levelers! Anyone who wanna find me, I'll be at DBG Zone X... Courage, strength, fortitude. Power not arrested in the act of judgement, but passing on to further action, sometimes obstinacy.This is a card of courage and energy.
-Blaise Pascal
Respite
Finally, Friday has come. A day of rest for me. Later got flute, but hey I enjoy that.
Not to say I don't enjoy work. I'm getting all happy and excited thinking about tomorrow too. I never knew that I've been missing out so much on Saturdays, especially when I'm working and can't hang out with friends.
Let's go watch sunset together k?
I just read a story..now I wonder why we are who we are..hmmm so philosophical now..
*shakes head* Never mind. I'm supposed to be blogging about the criteria I look for in a guy. (Then again, I can't ask for much, since I'm not giving much, and I don't look good enough to warrant so much..)
1. He must have the same passions as I do
2. He must not mind that I babble on like a brook about my passions, because I don't know what else I could probably talk to him
3. He must be undeniably charming
4. Cute acts is a must (I don't mean the kawaii kind of cute, more like he does cute things like..well, what EC1 does XD)
5. He must love me for who I am inside. No longer will I be used.
6. Preferbly, he should be like a sugar daddy to me. I love to be spoilt XD
7. If number 6 fails, then it doesn't matter. But I would like to treat him (often) well and show him love via gifts and presents (and the occasional hug and kiss)..and I'd like to have him treat me back once in a while and preferbly shower me with gifts. Surprises are a must.
8. When I'm crying I don't want him to tell me not to cry. That would make me cry harder. I want his shoulder as my tissue, his arms as a protection.
9. Did I mention he must be cute? This kind of cute is cute looks.
10. I must be able to match his love for me.
I figure #10 is the most important. I could never forgive myself if someone loves me more than I do him...honestly I don't know how that will happen, because it seems I often love my friends more than I love myself.
Love: When someone else's happiness matters more to me than my own.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
EEEUUUUWWWW!
So like, last night I got a k610im Sony Ericsson phone~~ Like FINALLY~
Even though like it was so damn budget la. NEW PHONE HOOOO~~
Quickly created my own music etc etc.
Talked with EC2. I think what drove us apart was because of difference in views. I was too serious, and then you were not. But please please..even joking about telling us to say that in front of him...is just wrong leh. What if you'd said it to the wrong person? I think the friendship sure immediately cancel contract de..
Next time don't do le...It sounds like you also want to get us into trouble...=//
Haix.
Never mind. All that is last night de.
Today I checked Friendster and nearly like OMGed la.
Last time I had a photo comment, but I dunno how to find it. Why dun they make it more user-friendly, all the comments pending approval on one page, after approval then the photo/user profile will display lor.
NEVER MIND. Walau. So like, in my gmail got notification for some guy who'd posted a comment for PROFILE. So I say, okay, approve. What he said totally make me regret posting my pictures online, but NEVER MIND. I also feel quite happy what he said. =D
NEVER MIND. Then I looking through my Friendster pictures. Then wtf I find some guy posting:
"frieend call 97662475 razib 800 pm"
OMGWTFPWNEDBBQLOLWTFHGOAWAYLAIDUNLOOKLIKECHICKENDOI
I'm now so damn wtfh lorh. I think next time must censor my pictures le. Draw a hideous mask using hideous Paint.
T.T
Now I know why EC2 keep telling me that line. SIGH. I want to meet guys for friendship, NOT...eating fish. I so angry now!!! >.<
Haix. Never mind again. Today working with RU~ YESH! Long time never work with you le!!!! T.T
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
What's happening?
What's happening?
What's happening?
What's happening?
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.
I honestly don't know anymore. We argued because of...what? And a 2nd argument nearly blew up in our faces. The 1st thresh-it-out talk was bad enough. The 2nd made me feel..wrong at the end. I think you find me very self-centered ba. I'd rather you talk bad about me, coz I'm not who you think. Even though I tell you my bad points le, you didn't seem to believe it.
Well. BELIEVE IT. Because one day you'll see that side of me, and then you'll be so shocked. But I tell you le. This is me.
It is my nature.
Don't understand what that mean? Read following:
Once, a scorpion sat upon the bank of a river which was too deep and swift for him to traverse. A frog swam by and the scorpion called out, "Frog, carry me upon your back to the other shore!"
The frog replied, "I will not, for you will sting me and I will die."
The scorpion said to the frog, "But why would I do that? For if I were to do that, I would drown."
The frog considered this argument and at last said, "Very well. I shall carry you across the river."
So the frog came to the shore and took the scorpion upon his back. Halfway across the river, the scorpion stung the frog.
With his dying breath, the frog cried out, "Why have you done this? For now we will both die!"
And with his dying breath, the scorpion said, "Because it's my nature."
~
So to all my friends, just know that it's my nature to be 2-faced. And remember to never blame yourselves, because I blame myself first.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Stunts and Stuns
Well, what can I say? I saw the most stunning TC4 game ever.
The stunts pulled off in the game were stunning.
Sigh. Dunno whether to be demoralised or not. In a way, I have hope now for my TC4 game, because I see that I'm lacking in so many areas. In another way, I feel like I would never reach the gamer's style of gameplay, and reflexes and what not.
But I am training myself to go faster now.
Haix. But yesterday was a good day...collected CnC3 XD So nice, the Razer mat...so nice and big..XDD Haix.
But the only game I played yesterday sux. Try new things also CMI. But I learned something le and I will follow your advice le, Sifu. What I learnt: to MG the HTRA all the way and then use MG for 3SB in S1A1 is nuts (and missing the last ammo guy) for S1A3...entered S1A3 with 12 MG only..
12...woootz..
Ah well...
Monday, March 26, 2007
T.T
I just read your blog entry. So touching. I feel like crying again, not only because I feel so touched, but also because I feel so bad for hurting you so many times.
And I will keep asking 'could you ever forgive me?' because I don't feel forgiven.
T.T I really..god, my heart wobbled when I read your 3rd-last paragraph. I'm so...saying 'grateful' here wins the 'Understatement of the Year' award...that you are my best friend...
~
Today, Sunday 25/03/07...Felt so..emo. Church, then DBG with ALW..Learnt so many things though I didn't break score. Then Karen and CK came to visit me at work. We hugged and hugged. I felt like bursting out in tears because I felt so happy...really missed you guys man..T.T And I really needed a hug like that...Thanks Ren =)))
Now just waiting for hair to dry..in a few hours ( now almost 2am, 26/3/07) I'll be going to collect the CnC3 stuff..Talked to both my E.C.s..2nd E.C. and I nearly argued again...but I really enjoyed talking about the-thing-that-causes-most-conflict-between-us from a perspective that didn't make us argue at all...
Told my boss @ CP that I cannot work anymore le. Tired and honestly, I WANT A LIFE. Like, in my wishlist...I want all the time I can afford with all my friends and E.C.s...
And I want more time with TC4. I have hope that I can break score le. Saturday night broke by a little, and it gives me hope now. I can do it. I must do it. I will do it. Dun care if my finger break off or ankle twist off..This is what I want.
ARGH. Just feeling very very very emo now. When I next see you, I will hug you straight.
Friday, March 23, 2007
Realization
Thank you for caring so much about me even though I have been extremely bad to you. You snapped me out of the fog that I was in the entire day. The pain you made me feel was just enough to do so, and last night I felt so bad, so very rotten that like what I told you, I seriously thought of committing suicide.
And I'm so grateful to you for once again pulling me out of that hole that I've been deepening myself. I don't know what else to say le..Speechless at the intensity of what I felt last night. At the start, I couldn't sleep. Your 'hello?' and 'never mind' kept running through my mind. I felt that I have hurt you too much for you to consider me your friend.
So I stayed awake, thinking of ways to tell you that we couldn't be friends anymore le, considering that every other week we seem to be arguing hotly. And all that while, I wanted so desperately to sleep it all away. Even using a stress ball didn't help, because emotionally I was still awake.
After a few more smses and your call, I felt so grateful. I didn't realise what I was talking about, because it hadn't happened in a few years that I'd tell a friend that I was going to commit suicide - it tends to scare them away..
And when I realised that I was making you worried, I felt so bad all over again. It was enough that I didn't listen to your problems the whole day through yesterday, and I still had to make you worried if I'd died or something, when instead I was sleeping.
Could you ever forgive me?
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Defeat
Twice now it has happened. Why do you treat me like this? Do you really think you have anything to gain by asking me to go away when you feel angry? I can understand that if I'm the cause of your anger, then of course I'd go away; but it's not, and I'd rather talk and sympathise and empathise with you, instead of letting you stew in your own juices.
I just feel so defeated, because..I was just trying to help. Next time, I will leave you alone when you ask le. Because...Whenever you tell me to go home first, or that you want to be left alone, I get so confused. One part of me says to respect your decision, because I'm your friend, and the other part of me says to stay and talk it over with you, instead of letting you keep it in yourself, because I'm your friend again. So how do I overcome the same force?
I just don't know but yesterday..I just feel very sad that I couldn't help, and instead somehow made things worse. Over dinner, I think I understood your silence, and I was comfortable with it.
This whole week sux. Maybe it'll pick up next week after I get CnC3. Yes, -I-. I don't know about you anymore. You're still one of my cherished friends but...sometimes it just doesn't feel like it, and it pains me.
~
Now after talking to you, I understand why you were so sian last night..I'm sorry if I didn't respect your wishes, but honestly, I wish you'd never ask me to go away ever again.
And now I hate it because you're asking me to not care about you. How can I not care about you? I feel like hitting you so hard in the hopes that you wake up; I want to punch at a wall till I bleed and I feel pain so that I know that I'm actually LIVING, that I'm not DEAD YET, that I'm AWAKE and NOT SLEEPING ANYMORE LE.
WAKE UP TO THE FACT THAT I CANNOT NOT CARE ABOUT YOU BECAUSE YOU, YOU ARE ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS. AND TO NOT CARE ABOUT YOU IS TO LOSE YOU. I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU, NOT AFTER WHAT HAPPENED.
WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP!
I HATE YOU FOR TELLING ME TO GO AWAY. I HATE YOU, DO YOU HEAR ME?
BUT AT THE SAME TIME, I CARE FOR YOU SO MUCH, IT BORDERS ON A WORD I'M SCARED TO USE. I DON'T WANT YOU TO TELL ME TO GO AWAY EVER AGAIN, OR THAT YOU THINK I SHOULD STOP CARING ABOUT YOU.
Because I might go away for good, and it's not gonna help either of us.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Pins and Needles
At work yesterday, felt so numb. The first time I worked just to forget. Totally didn't talk much to most customers, barely talked like 20 sentences to my colleagues. Just so damn tired and worn out.
Then the pins and needles came jabbing. Pain came once more, but when we work it off..
Oh well. Sadded that I can't join KC for outing this week..Next time must let me know at least 1 week in advance so I can plan -.-''' and tell my boss..
What makes it more sad is that I can't TC4 this entire week. Dunno if after flute I should chiong to DBG and play, or maybe just play at Clementi and try to get my no. 1 spot back from Ruzhi =PPPP
Sigh. Hopefully nia.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Revelations
So last night (basically from 9pm till almost 2am) E.C #2 and I talked, first over phone, then sms and then over phone again.
You'd think I'd be bleeding happiness since we talked so long.
Okay okay, so one of my wishes came true, but it came at a price.
Strangely, this time round I didn't feel..well, okay, I felt something but it wasn't as strong as what happened last time. Did I feel relived? No. But I felt touched and...honestly happy that E.C #2 thought about me (even though it was just once) in that way.
But like I said, love can't be forced. I hope that when E.C #2 reads this (you know, he does..) he knows that I still..love him as a best friend, and while it hurts, it's a kind of a good hurt. To know that (omg sounding so perasan here but it's true, OKAY) I'll least likely to be one of the girls to hurt him in a relationship in the future.
Same goes for E.C. #1. >.< I would never want to hurt him ever again.
Broke my promise not to cry again. But I think I finally said some things that..had to be said. And the way we revealed to each other was just so..emo. I knew that he knew from the start le, but I thought my decision had put him off.
Like I once said to a special someone else "Let me love you from a distance" partially because it was true, and partially because..well, the usual happenings. Girl desperate, will do many things.
>.<
So it was an emotional sms and talk session. Don't get me wrong, the smses would never get deleted unintentionally. Everytime I read them, I get a feeling of wonder and..happiness. Let me live in my fantasy world for just that little bit more.
Hopefully we can hang out sooner or later. Have you figured out why I started this blog? Why I said it coincides with something? And what was with the counting of days?
Monday, March 19, 2007
???? Randomness ????
What a way to start Monday! =D
Eye Candy #1 smsed me in the morning, waking me up in the process. w00tz. =DDD
Can't remember the last time I posted, probably on a Friday. Can't remember anything except how to play TC4 and how to work.
I just feeling so melancholic. Can't believe that my bosses thought that way of me. Haix. I will not record here coz I just want to forget it.
But I can't get rid of the feeling I got. So defeated, so humiliated. I =X nothing to say le. I just..can't accept it, can't believe it. And worst of all, I still have to work..and that he jumped to conclusions. I wanted to yell at him 'OMG WTFH were you thinking? Why would I lie about such a FARKING TRIVIAL THING?' ((not that being tired was trivial, thanks for pointing that out to me, Ruzhi))
I think it totally affected my TC4 the past few days - work and what happened at work. Seeing such low scores since I got 7m really disheartened me.
No, Sifu, I swore (and broke oath) that I would never cry in front of a guy again. At least, not physically. I don't wanna stun you yeah.
Sigh. Is it because I act so boyish? That my close guy friends all dunno how to comfort me/take it when I cry? Or even threaten to spill tears?
And asking me to be more..girlish, even to ACT something that I can't be, I won't be and I'm not gonna be..is just futile! I can't be that way, even though you might want me to (seeing as to how many times you've actually said 'If you want us to stop teasing you (since when was there an 'us'?!) then you should act more like a girl'.
Sometimes, I get scared to being more like a girl. To reveal the girly side of me is to bring out the darkest parts of me. The girl-me is spiteful, cat-claws and all. Not to mention the girl-me is totally clueless about make-up (and dress-up, but that's mostly due to the boy-me).
And hey, I like being a hermaprodite..person. Ying and Yang. Duality of Nature (omg haven't quoted that in a long while XD) etc etc. I like having 2 mindsets at the same time. Gives me headaches and less time to dwell upon sadder things.
Sifu, next time..just take your anger out, even on me is okay de..okie..It's no use trying to keep it in..You know the drawings I do? Is my way of expressing feelings, because some people say sometimes I so expressionless that I sound like I'm apathetic to their plight (oh woe is them, I say without any trace of feeling whatsoever) etc etc. But I also human, and I your tudi and more importantly, your friend. I'm there for you.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
So tired!!
Still working 6 days a week. My pay (Centrepoint + Ghim Moh) had better add up to at least 600SGD this month! >.<
Sigh. So tired! Score dropping (but HENG still stable around 7.1m) Haven't had a major break-score game in a week or so le..Hoping Saturday maybe I can take day off to get some major stuff (like trying out my CnC3 demo, getting ready for CnC3 LAUNCH EVENT! *dances* and maybe give myself a manicure) and then go out and chiong TC4 with the guys!!!
Not to mention Billy Bombers la =)
Friday is coming up, good thing no flute. Not that I don't want to play Nocture by Chopin (Chor-pan, for the uneducated *sniffs* XD ) but honestly, I want to have a good, full day at DBG with the guys.
And I think I shall have a 2nd eye candy!! This 2nd one is actually supposed to be the first, coz I liked him first, but hey! I should probably move the 1st E.C to 2nd place le..coz now I dun really see much of the 1st E.C..both of us so busy.
Okay, so my 1st E.C has been (unfortunately, due to your lack of presence, we feel that we must) demote you to the 2nd place.
1st E.C very easy to guess who it is de! For KC, it's not the recent one ya..it's quite long ago de!! =D
Ha~ So anyway, yesterday (Wednesday) was rushing to do waffles la..Then..KELONG...I pulled the tub of waffle mix upwards and the ladle's (which was in the tub) handle caught under the container for blueberry spread. End up, the ladle did a 180 degrees before falling back into the tub. Guess where ALL the sacred waffle mix went.
Onto my jeans!! Zomg!! I spilled so much SACRED waffle mix!! Zomg!!
But the design quite nice as it went down my jeans. But so cold!! XD
Then I got one more qian-da, qian-bian, qian-zhou, qian-ma and PERASAN thing to say..
My waffle batter makes the most beautiful waffles...crispy, and beautiful..SERIOUS. Coz on Wednesday morning I asked to beat the waffles. Then only today I started using the batter that I made. And all the previous days is all other people do de. I think about 2-3 months I never beat waffle mix le. So proud and happy that I still remember how to make good waffle batter. And honestly, I could list like all the good things for my waffle batter, but I think I'd better not.
Is a secret recipe, you know ;)
The secret to making good waffle batter is actually love and concentration. And of course steady hands to operate the mixer, crack the eggs, pour the water, the oil... XD
Sigh. Dunno when I can beat waffle mix again. Really love how my batter turned out. When I grow up I really really want to start a waffle kiosk..named Waffle Queen (but sounds like Dairy Queen..later kenna sue for copyright infringement XDD dammnnn) or maybe Waffle Palace..something royal can le XDDD
Yup..so better I start saving now huh...kkkkk XDD
Monday, March 12, 2007
Busy Bee
I'm now working everyday except fridays.
Life rawks. And tires. And disheartens.
Oh well.
Friday cut hair plus dye..damn nice. Love my hair. So light, so short..So COLOURED~
XDDD
Saturday went to work @ Centrepoint to find my boss in a praying/prostrate postition. I was so 'wtf?' and he jumped up (imagine that..) exclaiming that he wasn't praying and instead was looking for a piece of paper that flew under the fridge. Dunno how he squeezed in there man..zz TC4 that day wasn't too bad. Asked a customer about my frameworks..loved her answer..gonna get more opinions XD
Sunday..went back to Ghim Moh to work. Forgot how busy it could be. Busy busy busy until 6pm, sudden silence siak. Then had to clean the HKEggPuff machines..zzz clean lor! Clean fast fast, waited for customer till 8.20pm like that, then stocktake everything (so many things...zzzz Mr. Bao!! next time dun order so much le) and then go home..9.30 reach home..so tired.
Today, worked morning shift. Not too busy (THANK GRAWD) but still no time to sit down have lunch. Went home to chiong instant noodles and yoghurt. No, I'm not starting a diet any time soon =P
So..now gonna go dbg for Top up 20 get 20 free promo lor..
Sigh. Tomorrow got dunno what chapalang performance..7pm to 9pm at Clementi Yamaha ppl..I think it's just a 'stand up and announce what piece you playing, then play lo' kind of thing la =/ Free and easy siak.
Sigh. Haven't decided what to play either. Oh well XDD
Friday, March 9, 2007
Love
我的爱 已融化在空气
~
Thursday, March 8, 2007
>.<
Okay, so maybe not drinking to forget all my troubles blah blah blah. Coz if I wanted to go clubbing or pubbing it'll be with KC!!
Oh and also coz I promised my close friend never to drink until I'm drunk ever again.
Bounced back a little after work. Glad we sort of patched things up. Can't wait for tomorrow - for my haircut la, not to see you =P
Installed CnC3 demo but cannot play!!! Graphics card not up to standard even though I'd installed DirectX 9.0!! SADDED!
Now discussing with a friend on how to get myself a good graphics card. Not to mention an extra stick of RAM if I can afford it XD Talked to my brother le, if he wanna chiong CnC3 with me..say okay..he will pay for some stuffs. I wanted him to ask (preferbly persuade with results) my dad to upgrade the graphics card (AND get that stick of RAM..) SO I don't have to run to my grandparents' place everytime I want to get a fix of CnC3...
Ah well.
HAIX. Now must look for an AGP slot in my computer..it's so damn old..
Loss
To KC:
Lost - Day ???
Lost track of the days..guess I won't be updating often, being so busy with work.
Just read my results. Nothing to fantastic. One A and the rest a mix of B and B+..Kind of regret and not-regret it though. Regret, coz probably could have been better..not-regret, coz of new friends found and new scores for TC4.
The irony is that the subject I got A in is..ITEC. Which, is like, my least favourite subject..The wonders of a good, dedicated teacher =)
Work until wanna die le. Cry until cannot cry le. Play TC4 until cannot think le. When I next see you, dunno how it will be. Let's hope for the best. This holidays are by far the fastest moving for me. Chionging work, hanging out with friends..Maybe this is what I want..but at the same time, I feel like collapsing, so I would never have to have the problems that I have right now.
But friends forever, friends together. You guys are cherished forever by that silent girl...
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
Failure of Right Arm - Day ???
Well, I have to make up for 3 days' worth.
Saturday: Went to DBG to celebrate, in advance, Sifu's birthday and mourn Julian-di's going army... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIFU~~ DIDI, GOOD LUCK FOR ARMY!! =D Got him a big cuddly, oh-so-cute and oh-so-furry BLUE dolphin! Did I mention that was like, the 2nd last one?? Then we went to MFM to eat...w00t. The cake at the end was the best part XDD The manager and staff didn't know how to put the candles (all 25!) on the cake. So how we put?
Must get the pictures from Michael..sigh.
But the best parts to life have to have the worst parts also. 2 guys, dunno what, playing for score nia, hog the machine until I buay song. You wanna play for score issit? Know all the links, but you know why you 2 lose out in score? Coz you 2 LAZY. L-A-Z-Y. Weapons management also kelong. Nyah nyah nyah. XDDD Oh well. So I played a game, did all the links they knew, end up getting 7.1m. Their better scorer got 6.8m? XDD
Sunday: Got 99_ hits for S1A2 in both games that I played, but both games S2 and S3 screwed up badly. So that's the worst part.
Best part was I chilled out with Klique + WP! CHI MIAN BAO!!! EAT BREAD!!! EAT CAKE!!! Not to mention play badminton XDD Play until right arm wanna fall off, then still ZHONG SE QING YOU..go and TC4 at DBG XDDD
Did I mention the cake part was the best?
You know, guys, when we all have b/fs right, we all should hang out one day and do funny stuff like in the first dance of Bride and Prejudice, where the men and women tease each other XDD It'll be great, you know? =D
Monday: Argh. Work. Sian. That's all I can say.
Tuesday (Today, NOW.): Argh. Work. Sian. I just realised I gtg Centrepoint to work. Sian. The highlight is probably that I confirm gonna preorder CnC3 for the goodies XD
Guess now I'm off to make sure my arm doesn't fall off, and work, and check out the specs for CnC3 so as to decide if I need to upgrade comp or not XDDD
Friday, March 2, 2007
Facial - Day 19
Rest - Day 18
Well, finally I can take a day off..and what better way than to get a facial?
Saturday also off, Cik Rohani do for me =) Thank you!!
So I guess, finally so relieved. Got my pay today and I really am happy..Thank you Mr. Paul!!! =)
The only thing that crimps my day is that I not hanging out with you on Friday..instead, kenna postponed to next next Wed..Sure, I was disappointed at first, but hey..I'm used to it le..A lot of people pang seh me too =P Not to mention I pang seh a lot of people too XDDD
So..hopefully one Wednesday we can hang out, then can chiong Carls Jr and ice skating..
Now I can't wait for Sunday...hang out with my Klique..the best sia..Saturday free to chiong bling for clothes and nails (Hrmmm..Bugis..), or TC4 all the way..
All the way man...I won't forget my eye candy, but let's just keep him out of sight for a little longer...
Thursday, March 1, 2007
Repetitive Stress Injury - Day 17
By today I would have worked about 4 days in a row le. Later afternoon I'll be going to work again...
RSI - Repetitive Stress Injury. I don't believe I have it..yet. My entire right side feels like it's on fire. My right hand, while loose finger makes for good ROF, shook when I played TC4 the second time round last night.
And don't need to talk about my leg. Right leg totally numb and stiff by the end of the 2nd game.
Stumbled to the bus stop; when the bus came, literally slumped into a seat. Went home, fed guinea pig, brush teeth, fell asleep in the same clothes I wore out XD
*sigh* Now I said before le...wanna exercise, play 5 games of TC4 in 5 hours, each game must complete and get at least 7m. w00tz XDDD
Current status: Confused. Why did I treat him like that over MSN? Was it because I just wanted him back? =/
Guess nothing much to say ba..today the A Levelers getting back results. Friday got facial, then hanging out at Vivo. Saturday chiong a full day's work...again. Sunday got church and badminton with Klique~~ XD Something to look forward to!
Maya
Leo
Dragon
100888
And I don't want the world to see me
I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Strength
It represents both the Lion's hot, roaring energy, and the Maiden's steadfast will. The innocent Maiden is unafraid, undaunted, and indomitable. In some cards she opens the lion's mouth, in others she shuts it.
Either way, she proves that inner strength is more powerful than raw physical strength. That forces can be controlled and used to score a victory is very close to the message of the Chariot.
With strength you can control not only the situation, but yourself. It is a card about anger and impulse management, about creative answers, leadership and maintaining one's personal honor. It can also stand for a steadfast friend.
Wishlist
PSP Jewel Door Mod + Skin
Learn to contact juggle professionally
Play DDR well (so that I can lose weight)
Determination in all that I do
Never be hurt again
Be the best at whatever I do
Be happy with what I have
Bluetooth headphones
A good laptop bag (preferbly Crumpler =X)
Likes
Racing
DotA
Arcade games
Hanging out
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Project Racing Devil
Start: 11 Feb 2008
End: None
Description: Constantly improve myself
Status: Ongoing. I will improve myself...I will not fail you guys
Project SSS
Start: 16th March 2008
End: Tentative mid 2009
Description: Being the first, one and only is really tempting. And then there are my personal reasons..
Project Tuning Gay
Start: End 2008
End: ???
Description: Complete dress-up
Status: Got my card liao..time for dress-up
Project Racing Hearts 2
Start: 20th Feb 2008
End: 29th Feb 2008
Description: FT car, complete dress-up and *ahem*
Status: Completed
Project Racing Hearts 1
Start: 16th Feb 2008
End: 16th Feb 2008
Description: Change car appearance to look identical
Status: Completed
Project Setting
Start: 11 Feb 2008
End: 11 Feb 2008
Description: Change parts as needed
Status: Completed
Project Stock
Start: 10 Feb 2008
End: 10 Feb 2008
Description: Change all parts to stock
Status: Completed