%-- Courage, strength, fortitude. Power not arrested in the act of judgement, but passing on to further action, sometimes obstinacy.This is a card of courage and energy.
-Blaise Pascal
The tears don't fall
It's such a small world.
I regret looking at your picture today. It made me think about what happened all over again. But I will stop, if only because of Regrets.
I WILL STOP! I WILL STOP!
No More Sad Songs - Clay Aiken
This is the way,
That i state my independence,
That i'm no longer connected to your memory.
This is the day that i'm making my defection,
gotta claim back the affection that you stole from me.
I used to hear your music so loud
But its so low.
You're just another face in the crowd,
I'm letting you know.
No more sad songs,
I'm letting you go now,
Switched off switched on,
I'm letting you know,
you turned out the light.
I'm gonna be alright when I...
turn the radio on.
No more sad songs.
These are the words to descibe all your offences.
You said love in the past tense
and then you let it go.
Haven't you heard,
You are no longer respected,
you are formally rejected
from the one you hurt.
I used to have the longing to hear
what was in your heart,
But now it seems i'm over the fear of this falling apart.
~
Sunday will mark our 1st month together le XD I'm so happy =)
Saturday didn't enjoy my morning at all. Had to rush to school to do FYP then went to work T.T
argghhh
SO BUSY
I can only hope that on my birthday, i'll be free~
Apart from the exams, that is.
FREEDOM~
Friday, July 20, 2007
So long..
...It's been so long since I updated.
Really quite pissed at school, even though I secretly beg for release from FYP. Just fail me, but spare the rest.
I really don't know what I've been doing this past month.
Just great sia. One whole month just ran away like this.
That's just me on a really bad procrastinating spree.
Sorry guys.
I wish that I could spend more time with you too, Regrets. I don't regret meeting you though. Sometimes I feel as if I could throw my life away, but I know you would never allow me to do something as stupid as that.
I'm really sorry.
To C.R. who may or may not be reading this: Hi..I was looking at a photo the other day and I thought of you. Maybe this is the reason why I asked you to my birthday party. I hope you will come..maybe we could talk a little, you know? You are a good friend, I don't want to have someone like you being my enemy.
I just don't like it, you know?
Monday, July 16, 2007
Wweeeeeee!~~
Friday: had a great time helping Regrets' bro to cook~ Enjoyed myself thoroughly at his place!
Saturday: Woke up pretty late, went to DotA a bit before I went for work.
Sunday: No work! So after church I went out with my bro, Regrets, FE and Ice to Bugis~ Found a really great bag for my brother, who also found himself some boxers XDD
Terry joined us a bit later. Also met HSJ at the arcade..playing Raiden O.O XDD Then omggg xx1981 turned up la! WTFH turn up also BO JIO de XDD
Haha~ I think it was great that he finally turned up!
This wed FE and I gonna go back Bugis to take a look at the tattoo parlour~ Should be quite busy la, this week.. Haixxx
Thursday, July 12, 2007
HIGH HIGH HIGH!
Wednesday was great, but could have been better if Regrets was with me!
After school I went DBG, got in 1 game of TC4 (it's like OMGGG I have deproved a lot), then went to meet my cousin...EEEEYAHH my photos are really nice and great! After that, went for my facial at FIL @ DBG~
SHIOK. I dozed off and dreamt of..WHO ELSE? XDD
Then after facial, went to Bishan to meet up with FE and Ice...wtfh..the HOTD4 guns are like so damn spoilt. Refunded credits to play OutRun2 classic instead. Then..
HORRORS. FE suddenly had the impulse to play BSL. It was like O.O we spent like 48SGD just to get to the jackpot. zzz hahahahaha so end up we played and then..so many ppl watching. I was so...omg la XDD
After that we went dinner and then walked to Macs to do FE's Flash work..I think the idea is really great la.
ANd that the girl sitting beside us was quite chio XDD Don't be sadded la, Ice-san. XD
Oh well...really had a great time last night~
Still thinking of what to do on my birthday. Mala steamboat, then DotA all the way, anyone?
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
EEEYAHHH
I seem to be using that phrase a lot XDD
EEEYAHHH~ But at least I don't sound like Gan Huang Ho or something like that XDD
Sunday was a great day - rushed from church to work..so tired XDD Then Mr. Bao forgot to deliver a cake to a customer..end up I had to send it lor T.T
Couldn't find a cab - I walked half way around Ghim Moh to just hail a cab. I felt kind of kuku to have walked so much carrying a 1.5kg cake.
Then when we reached CCK, I walked halfway around the place looking for the block...when the block was right beside me only T.T again
THEN when I got into the block, I went up to the correct floor, only to find that...the unit wasn't available from that lift.
So I went back down, went to the correct unit area, then ran up the steps (14 flights in all T.T) to get the cake there XDD
AH WELL, that's customer service for you =D
Monday went to meet Regrets and...O.o Joel. XD Instead of DotAing, we went to Regrets' house for a bit for him to bathe (lol poor Joel) and then go DotA. End up, I went with Joel to Centuary Square to play HOTD4 and OutRun2 classic. Regrets went to DotA XDDD
Tuesday saw me back in school~ XDD
Today I'll be going for facial and meeting up with my cousin to get our makeover photos~ After that gonna look for FE and help him with his Flash work, then hopefully we can rape zombies together~
SO BUSY~
Monday, July 9, 2007
Life is great!
Still thinking about what to do on my birthday~
I do really want to spend time with ALL my friends..listing them in no particular order: the Klique, Regrets, arcade friends, FE-san and Ice-san..I really want to spend all the time I can on my special day with you all!! =DDDD
I was thinking of having a full day celebration, but I wouldn't know where to host it. My house is..probably out, though we all could just sit and talk, you know? But in a way, I want everyone to be together, so that they know who actually makes the girl that is Maya~
Ren was suggesting have to do shift work XDD afternoon with arcade friends, dinner with the Klique, night with Regrets.
Oh and for those who don't know yet, Regrets and I are together yeah =) It's so obvious from the previous blog entries, right? XDDD
WE ARE THE TUTUKUKU COUPLE~ HE'S MY TUTU KUEH, I'M HIS NAIVE KUKU GIRL~ XDD
hahaha...I'm just so happy that my life is so full and contented now~
Saturday, July 7, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY~
Happy Birthday to Camelia!~
Hehe..so like yesterday, Friday, I was happily in school - OMGGG I got like 78 marks for my SMAD test..2 marks behind the top..I SIAN LA kkk. XDD
N/m..After that, I was thinking, okay, today I be a good girl, I stay for FYP. End up lugging my laptop to school for nothing. T.T So I smsed Regrets and told him that I would have like, the next 5 hours free. Then he asked if I wanted to join him and Avan for DotA and I was like 'sure la, why not?'
I mean, it's such a thinly veiled excuse for him wanting to see me la~
XDD
After we DotAed, we went to his place so that he could change out (seriously, he was perspiring like..like..waterfall, k) and then we both could head to Holland V to meet up with Krazy Klique~ Haha..PIE was like, totally jammed. I should have gotten the taxi uncle to bring us another way XD
N/m, we reached there around...7.45pm, I think. The girls were all there except Lipz (T.T) So we had a very very good dinner! After which, all of us went to Eski and chilled out, giving Camelia her birthday presents~
And OMG they didn't have spoons la, so I ran off to 7-11 to get spoons. But I was so pai seh to ask for spoons outright without buying, so I found Ben's and Jerry's Fossil Fuel icecream at 7-11 so I bought it - lovely flavour XDD I asked the guy for 7 spoons =X
Ah...The time enjoyed with the Klique and Regrets was great man..After everything - hey, I was still sober okay. Regrets was like 'tsk tsk..one cup and you like this le' XDD - we went home la..Regrets sent me home; we went to the playground to just talk again then he had to catch the last train home (which was good, coz this morning it was raining and I didn't want him to like, die of hypothermia or something you know XD)
So off he went after making sure I was in my house la XDD
SO HAPPY~ Really enjoyed my day with all of you~
PICTURES PLEASE~ XDDDD
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Finally~
Finally watched Transformers with Regrets~
Shiok! Loved the movie! Though I think both of us were a tad tired to fully appreciate XDD
Doesn't matter, huh XDD We both enjoyed ourselves very much!
After that, he sent me home - he ate at the coffeeshop once more, then I asked if we could talk awhile at the void deck below my house.
I said some things that kept weighing on my heart for the day..I'm glad we talked about it, you know?
Now that I see someone's msn nick is: "Loving someone, is for fools" I feel so...angry? No, I can never feel anything but a twist in my gut for you le.
*shrugs it off* FRIDAY CAM'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION~~~ XIAO LONG BAO BAOS~
Too bad Regrets can't come =(
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Love isn't easy, but it sure is hard enough
How could I start to explain
The feelings when I first talked to you?
It felt like I could learn to feel once more
And then we met each other
Though we did not talk much.
The games we played
The times we shared
All I keep in my heart
Now that we are together
Everyone seems to try to break us apart
Sweetheart:
Love isn't easy, but it sure is hard enough
But I just want to let you know
My love for you is true
Sweetheart, everything's so blurry
Everyone's so fake
But I just want to let you know
Love isn't easy..
But it sure is hard enough
How did it come to be
That you and I must be
Far away from each other every day?
I find myself staring into space
Counting down the hours till I get to see your face
I just want you to know
I would never leave you
It's like
'Till death do us apart'
My dear, dear sweetheart
Love isn't easy...
But it sure is hard enough..
~
I'm planning on making that into a song =X If you guys have noticed, the title is from ABBA's Love isn't Easy, but it sure is hard enough. Certain parts are from Puddle of Mudd's Blurry, Fountain of Wayne's Hey Julie...really feeling emo right now coz it's like, so many things have occured since we started going out together, you know?
And though I don't think you'll ever read my blog coz..of what you said the other day, I just hope one day you'll understand what I mean...
Monday, July 2, 2007
Wow...
Friday: Spent most of the day feeling so tired yet happy. The usual happened XD Then Regrets sent me to flute @ Clementi..After that, we went to my house so I could take dinner first, then I accompanied him to dinner at the coffee shop near my house. After dinner(s), we went to the playground and just chatted la~
Saturday: Worked morning. SO TIRED! T.T So many customers, even I and Lu Hui couldn't handled. I got Aunty Lay Keng down earlier than I'd originally asked, because seriously, too many customers!! XD
After I got my strawberry cheesecake, I went out to meet Regrets at CCK. I kelong-ed...took the train towards Pasir Ris =X Coz I used to it le la, okay! XDD At CCK met up with his friend; the 3 of us sat there until Regrets suggested I go inside (coz 3 of us looked like we were in a sauna XD). Then I said, okay la..I go in play arcade only.
HORRORS. BLASPHEMY. SACRILIEGE. The TC4 card reader was spoilt T.T So never mind. I saved money coz also, the TC4 was small screen XDD
After that, we went to Yishun to KTV~ Lol..That was really fun memories..Really fun lor..Then went home quite late..around 2am, tio mother scold XDD But we talked till about 4am at the playground coz he didn't want to spend money on cab fare home. *sighs*..
Sunday: worked from 1130 till about 3. Coz I really couldn't take it, was really tired XDD But after that, couldn't resist going out with Regrets again XDD Went to eat Mala Steamboat @ Chinatown with Avan, Eddie, Regrets' bro + GF and Regrets himself la XDD After that I played one game of DotA with them, then I went home XDD
So fun, this weekend...really loved it, and the guy that I hang out with..ah well XDD
Wishing Regrets a HAPPY BIRTHDAY~ Hope that you will no longer have any REGRETS XDD
Maya
Leo
Dragon
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And I don't want the world to see me
I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Strength
It represents both the Lion's hot, roaring energy, and the Maiden's steadfast will. The innocent Maiden is unafraid, undaunted, and indomitable. In some cards she opens the lion's mouth, in others she shuts it.
Either way, she proves that inner strength is more powerful than raw physical strength. That forces can be controlled and used to score a victory is very close to the message of the Chariot.
With strength you can control not only the situation, but yourself. It is a card about anger and impulse management, about creative answers, leadership and maintaining one's personal honor. It can also stand for a steadfast friend.
Wishlist
PSP Jewel Door Mod + Skin
Learn to contact juggle professionally
Play DDR well (so that I can lose weight)
Determination in all that I do
Never be hurt again
Be the best at whatever I do
Be happy with what I have
Bluetooth headphones
A good laptop bag (preferbly Crumpler =X)
Likes
Racing
DotA
Arcade games
Hanging out
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Project Racing Devil
Start: 11 Feb 2008
End: None
Description: Constantly improve myself
Status: Ongoing. I will improve myself...I will not fail you guys
Project SSS
Start: 16th March 2008
End: Tentative mid 2009
Description: Being the first, one and only is really tempting. And then there are my personal reasons..
Project Tuning Gay
Start: End 2008
End: ???
Description: Complete dress-up
Status: Got my card liao..time for dress-up
Project Racing Hearts 2
Start: 20th Feb 2008
End: 29th Feb 2008
Description: FT car, complete dress-up and *ahem*
Status: Completed
Project Racing Hearts 1
Start: 16th Feb 2008
End: 16th Feb 2008
Description: Change car appearance to look identical
Status: Completed
Project Setting
Start: 11 Feb 2008
End: 11 Feb 2008
Description: Change parts as needed
Status: Completed
Project Stock
Start: 10 Feb 2008
End: 10 Feb 2008
Description: Change all parts to stock
Status: Completed