Thursday, May 31, 2007

PSP!

WEDNESDAY! WAS! A! VERY! GOOD! DAY!

Actually, nah, wednesday was a day I was damn happy!


START!
Since the dressing for Ice-san and FE-san was casual-formal, I decided to wear my black overcoat over my blank tank top and jeans~

Went to school (hey, I'm a good girl, I don't skip school - only lessons XDDDDD)

After school, went to eat with Man Tou! Discussed quite a bit of things...quite cute la! XD

Then after that, go find lab blow aircon for a bit, then I left school for Bugis, he went to find friend. I guess I walked so slowly, so forcefully, coz I knew my legs would auto-bring me to the cafe la. BUT NO MORE! SINCE HE DOESN'T WANT ME THERE, I WILL NOT GO!

XDD

At Bugis, played 2 games of TC4 while waiting for FE to come first. Ice was coming later, around 6, 7. We went to get tix for Pirates 3 (shiok movie, btw!!!) and then OutRun..and OMFGWTFNOOOOOOOOOOOO

We wanted to train HOTD4 (since Ice-san wasn't there, we could give no excuse of 'I'm gonna die, can play for me?' XDDD) BUT!!..noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...The P1 gun was 'spoilt'...and I thought the lady was tuning it!! T.T T.T

Oh well, so we solo lor. Actually come to think of it, we didn't even play HOTD4 until we came back from SLS.

WHICH BRINGS ME TO THE MAIN HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY~~

I bought a PSP! XDD

PSP + Screen protector + airfoam casing + 4gb mem stick = 400SGD in cold hard cash. So what to do? I withdraw (and with FE as my bodyguard) money from ATM and go to pay him XDD

So happy! I think I've said enough about the not-enough-space error message and how the guy was totally cool in helping me to load the game in la!

Oh yah, on the way to SLS we combed Bugis Street for...stuff XD I found some really nice and cheap bling there! It's like you said, Ren! The Taiwan stuff's coming to SG! XDDD

Then after SLS, we went back to Bugis arcade where FE and I solo-ed HOTD4 and FE and Ice played their share of Outrun~ I ALSO PLAYED!!!

Virgin game sia. Heart Attack mode~

8.15 rush to cinema to catch Pirates 3...SHIOK! Seriously. I WANT THE OST WHEN IT COMES OUT! Wishlist updated!

wowowow! 3 hours of solid pirates action~ So sad! I nearly cried at the ending, coz..SO EMO!!

After that, we smart (hehe I stealing credit from FE), we stay behind watch the secret scene XD

OMG..like, 11.30pm liao la! Went to supper @ Macs, then rush to arcade to Outrun! XDDD But I didn't play la...Those 2 were fighting in the game mah! XDD

After that, FE went home (haha lazy kuku!!! XDD) and Ice-san and I walked to...eh...Peninsula Plaza, I think. I know outside City Hall mrt, near Funan IT Mall, jiu diu le! XD

Took NightRider 5 home..we talked quite a bit..thanks man for the song...really really emo!! Nearly T.T on the bus, but heng I can hold it in XDD

Shiok..Wednesday...really was a good day...Thanks guys..

~

Thursday..woke up late...then go work lor!

Friday..nothing mucH? Dunno leh..it haven't come yet XDD

Saturday = KONG KONG'S BIRTHDAY~ YEAH! *dances*

Ah well I guess that's all I wanted to blog about! XDDD


Monday, May 28, 2007

Rewrite

I am a writer, therefore I will write. I will keep writing, even as I bleed, because writing will not leave me.

I am a gamer, therefore I will game. I will keep gaming, even as I cry, because gaming will not leave me.

I am a shooter, therefore I will shoot. I will keep shooting, even as I scream, because shooting will not leave me.

I am a free-beater, therefore I will free-beat. I will keep free-beating, even as I die, because free-beating will not leave me.

~

Asian Kung Fu Generation - リライト

軋んだ想いを吐き出したいのは
存在の証明が他にないから
掴んだはずの僕の未来は
「尊厳」と「自由」で矛盾してるよ

歪んだ残像を消し去りたいのは
自分の限界をそこに見るから
自意識過剰な僕の窓には
去年のカレンダー、日付がないよ

消してリライトして
くだらない超幻想
忘れられぬ存在感を

起死回生リライトして
意味のない想像も
君を成す原動力全身全霊を
くれよ

芽生えてた感情切って泣いて
所詮ただ凡庸知って泣いて
腐った心を、薄汚い嘘を

消してリライトして
くだらない超幻想
忘れられぬ存在感を

起死回生リライトして
意味のない想像も
君を成す原動力全身全霊を
くれよ

~

Asian Kung Fu Generation - ReWrite

Wanting to spew out the jarred thoughts is
Because there’s no other proof of my existence
My future that I should’ve grabbed hold is
Conflicting between “dignity” and “freedom”

Wanting to erase the distorted afterimage is
Because I’ll see my limit there
In the window of the excessively self-conscious me
There are no dates in last year’s calendar

Erase and rewrite
The pointless ultra-fantasy
The unforgettable sense of being

Revive
And rewrite
The meaningless imagination and the driving force that creates you
Give it your whole body and soul

After cutting my feelings that grew, I regret
After realizing that after all, I’m just a mediocrity, I cry

Erase and rewrite the depressed heart and the dirty lie
The pointless ultra-fantasy
The unforgettable sense of being

Revive
And rewrite
The meaningless imagination and the driving force that creates you
Give it your whole body and soul

~

Linkin Park - Leave Out All the Rest - Chorus

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

~

I want to thank everyone for being so supportive of me through the last chapter. You guys have been holding me up (like my crutches when I fell down the other time) and honestly, I don't know what I'd do if I wasn't out with you guys..

Special thanks to (in no particular order):

Ren: Gurl, you are the best. I hope I didn't spoil your birthday celebration! FOREVER NINETEEN GURL! I hope I will always be there for you, like you've always been here for me. Thank you for all your advice, for listening to me, for comforting me, for just being there for me with CK as well. Thank you for knowing to keep me busy when it happened on Friday, else I would have just gone home to brood and end up in a worse state of mind.

Ru: Your advice is invaluable wor. While you didn't not approve of it, you got advise me, and me is really thankful =) We never leave each other XDD

Ice-san and FE-san: YOU TWO ARH. BEST FREE-BEAT BUDDIES FOREVER!!! Thank you for keeping me occupied on Saturdays and Sundays! Ice-san, thanks for seeing me home wor! FE-san, thanks for your advice...I won't give up hope!!! XDDDDDD

Krazy Klique: For all the times you guys have stood by me..have kept me afloat in the (mala~) tsunami..have kept me happy~ You guys I won't leave, this I promise you...

Ruzhi: Thanks dude. Your advice..hurt, but it opened my eyes. I won't forget you =)

Alwin-sama: While we haven't been talking much in like the past few weeks..you have always stood quietly beside me and taught me so much things, not only about TC4, but about life. You have always listened to my rants, and I'm grateful that I have someone like you. You will always have a special place in my heart.

Z.F @ SG: We will be changing names soon, but right now I just call you guys Z.F ba...Typlo-kor, Shawn, Julian-di (btw, thanks Jul-di for stoking my anger. It reminded me that I ought to be angry, and I was grateful that I could feel once more), Drag-di, Mic, Lou-di...all of you from Gamefaqs also...while we haven't been like, together for a lot, the times we had...I won't forget XDDD

I guess that's all for right now...EMO!~ I listening to all the Linkin Park songs Ice-san sent me...Ahh..Balm for the soul. And now I still have hope, because of Philip-san XDDDDDDDDDD

AHHHHHHHHHH OMGGGG I forget to thank Philip-san!!!

PHILIP-SAN!! THANK YOU WOR~ With your age, at least you know a lot more things, can give me advice too, and for that...I'm so grateful =) I hope that..one day, that thing we talked about, can happen. But not right now. Right now I want to be free. I want to go crazy. I want to get back my life; I want to TC4 until I'm crazy, so that I know that I'm living once more...



THANK YOU ALL WOR!~ TT.TT My heart is so cramped now..everyone holding a place in my heart XDDDD


Sunday, May 27, 2007

Epilogue

This is the closure of a very happy chapter in my life, though short...very short it was.

She called me, and I perfectly understood. Perhaps I was not good enough, perhaps he didn't like me from the start, perhaps THEY didn't like me from the start. It doesn't matter now.

I hope you would still read this last post. I will never forget you; you who brought so much joy and fun into my life. I had thought, back then, I could learn to love once more. Now my heart has turned to concrete, and I will never love once more.

Because like what another has said, when I give my love and trust, it is solid, it is total. And when it is rejected, I simply patch it up and go on with life. I will become cynical, I will not see you anymore, since it is her wish.

Do you truly understand what I mean to say here? There are 2 holes in my heart now, which can never be filled; there is a missing ingredient in what I would define 'love'; and I would never know 'love' anymore.

I just...don't understand why you don't tell me things yourself. "Completely honest" - that was total bullshit coming from you.

I'm not angry - that comes later. I'm not crying - how to cry when my mom is nearby? Painfully smile, that's what I'll do. And -if- I see you in school...I don't think so.

Thank you for all the good memories, and all the times that you treated me so nicely. It made me consider shedding the emotional armour; and for once, I'd thought I could touch heaven, that I could drop all my emotional baggage and soar...

I'll love you from a distance - I love all my friends. It hurts sometimes - no, all the time, in my case - but I just pick up the shattered parts of me and go on. Life is like this for me.

If you ever need someone to talk to, and you have no one else, I am here. I hope you remember that, because I have been told TWICE never to contact you again. You will have to contact me first.

And my good friend asked me, 'What are you gonna do if he asks you again?'

I don't know. I don't want to know. You don't want me anymore, that's fine. I just ask that you remember me, fondly, if you can. Because I know I will do that, and that I still care for you. But you will not use me anymore...

Goodbye.


Fin.


Friday, May 25, 2007

Reminder

I must keep reminding myself, since I have preached this advice to my friends before...

*chants*

When he doesn't love me the way I want, it doesn't mean he doesn't love me with all his heart.

When he doesn't love me the way I want, it doesn't mean he doesn't love me with all his heart.

When he doesn't love me the way I want, it doesn't mean he doesn't love me with all his heart.

When he doesn't love me the way I want, it doesn't mean he doesn't love me with all his heart.


Thursday, May 24, 2007

Misgivings

Should I be having misgivings so soon after what has happened? Why can't I shrug this feeling of uncertainty off?

Is it because everything happened too fast, too soon?

I'm just so scared. My feelings aren't clear, but the feeling that pops up to the top..is fear. I feel my 'stable' future is...crumbling. Not that I had a stable future in the first place, but at least, I understood what could happened if...if...

And yet, I feel..glad.

Glad that I could be totally honest with you, glad that what happened has happened, because I've been mollycoddled before. Because..it has revealed to me a side of the word 'relationship' that I've never seen before.

I wish I could call you, but it's 2 in the morning..I don't want to appear needy, whining...and least of all, I don't want to wake you up...You must be tired - I know I am after all that exercise and games.


From a 3rd person's point of view..it hurts me..that I could think of you like this; but I AM afraid..I AM scared. I can't sleep because everytime I close my eyes, I think about this. This brooding is killing me; and now I wish I'd talked to her when she'd offered me the chance - if I did, could I have slept better?

Could my misgivings have been erased? It's not as simple as you think. In the end, I guess the whole day just...didn't go the way I wanted it to. And while I'm used to it, I'm not. I'm a spoilt brat who charms people to get her way.

Even after writing to you twice, I can't shake this feeling..

It hurts me, it hurts us...and I'm sorry...

Please forgive me, my dear, my darling...


Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Happy Happy Joy Joy~

YESTERDAY

WAS

A

HELL

OF

A

GOOD

DAY!


wakkakakakakakaka

So like, before lunch, I thought GA was going to school, so I say, never mind, I go lunch with Ren first! So that's what we did, had a picnic a distance from Esplanade..She eat homecooked food, I got sushi~

Then after that we went ondeh ondeh hunting..mmm Kedai Kue Kue @ Raffles Place is really good! We found a Party World there and I bought helium balloons!!! They are so...squeezable, so huggable...I almost...ALMOST!!..regret giving them to GA~ XD

So after that, I found out GA not going to school, and is actually still at his house! So I T.T and rushed home on 106 to bathe (damn I was like perspiring until my 2 shirts were soaked la), put down the things that I'd bought and THEN rush over to White Sands.

Quite sadded that we didn't have all the time together but hey, after Alvin left..we talked so much! Robots, TC4, HOTD4..lol..really glad that we had something to talk about! I was like, so worried that I had nothing to talk about?

Coz then I would look like a kuku!!! XDD

After talking till the sun went down, we went to TC4 one last round and then I got dinner. After which, we went to GA's house so I could set down the jar of roses and his pouch..Then we watched TV for a while - Discovery Channel!! XDD

AND HE GRABBED MY HAND WOR!~~ I melting le! *melts melts melts* So we hold hands and watched the Massacre of Columbine High..

Then halfway through, I had to go..I mean, seriously, my mom was SMSing me already lorx

Anyway, GA's youngest bro was quite cute XD Reminds me of my own youngest bro..

So we were walking to the bus stop (so I could take a taxi home~) and then he grabbed my hand again!! T.T MELTING~~~~

Cannot stand it!! >.< XDDD

After which, we flagged down a taxi..before I got on the taxi, GA turned to give me a goodbye kiss (which I was quite stunned at first, and then felt kukufied coz..) - it landed on my specs XDD

Then I dunno what to do so I kiss him on the cheek also!

MELTING!!!!!! >.<

Then I quickly run to the taxi =X Waah Mercedez somemore lor..really was my day yesterday XD Then on the way home, the taxi driver quite nice, talk a lot to me =X

Hee~ So happy.. Then today supposed to hang out with GA and GA alone but end up he gotta entertain Ivern~ T.T

Oh well..never mind. It's not that the fates are conspiring against us, it's just that we love our friends too!

*hugs*

"I can only conclude that you are very huggable" - As referenced from what I said to GA =X

Falling in love with you~


Monday, May 21, 2007

Dear Josh

I love you very much - this already you know ba! We have so often said these words 'I love you' to each other, sometimes I take it for granted.

I guess before I meet up with you (I just realised the past week, we've totally not seen each other..walau, it feels like those kind of superstitions that the groom cannot see the bride a few days before her wedding day or something) this is my last letter.

And..I've already said most of the things I wanted to say in my previous letters..so in here, I will just simply say..


And that..I love you..and I'm grateful to you for all that you've done, my dearest =)


Sunday, May 20, 2007

Short Blog~

I just wanna blog that while I'm very happy, I am also very..kuku-fied! XDD

Happy coz:

1. I got 7.2m on Bugis' very hard TC4 machine~ Never break score la, but good enough~ I think I really learnt new things playing on the very hard machine~

2. FE and I played a full game of HOTD4 - Ice-san helped a bit la, especially when I wasn't confident..I guess maybe coz I haven't yet complete the game by myself, so I dun totally feel confident yet! XD


Kuku-fied coz:

1. I haven't seen my dear in this whole week le!! =((( TTTT.TTTT

2. I feel that I may have made FE more sad~

3. I haven't buy the container for my dear's presents

4. I haven't buy Karen's presents - found out something that make me very sad! XDD

5. I feel like I must look older than I really am, coz 30+ year old men are hitting on me =(

6. To add on to number 5, I just feel that maybe what Ren said was true, about them thinking that I got many boyfriends or I change b/f every month or something TTTT.TTTT


SADDED LE~

Okay I go DotA le..HSJ, when you joining me for DotA? =X


Friday, May 18, 2007

Sigh!

I keep doing a lot of that. E-Learning week next week..wonder what I'll be doing...haix~

Still not sure if what I making is enough to be considered a 'we're officially together!' present wor..

So excited for Karen's birthday - I was thinking of announcing that 'we're officially together!' on that day, but I guess it should realy be reserved for her birthday!!!

Not to mention I still haven't get her present!~~ *Faints*

I'm glad we talked today, you know, GA? =D It was great talking! XD I usually won't talk like that de, but as you've said 'Honesty is the best policy!'

And 'practise makes perfecty' sounded really wrong at that point in time, but hey, I had to maintain my PURE AND INNOCENT image so I didn't say anything =X

Now just getting ready to go school~ Got FYP Phase 1 Presentation today! Why do I feel like it's not gonna be good enough for RPeh? Humph~ He makes me feel...unwanted *shrugs* I self-proclaim to be the programmer for our group..faint~..Maybe he doesn't think my grades are good enough compared to Stevanus de ba~ XDD

But what are grades apart from being letters on a piece of paper..sure they can take you places, but do you ALWAYS have to depend on them so much...Haix..

Then when I grow up..I wanna work first before I go university..hopefully I can get into the same Uni as my dear? But what I do? IT again? I wanna go so many places before I actually settle down...Casino school..casino..T.T

TO WORK LA..not to play..XD

Then after that, I want to set up a waffle shop - like what I told you, GA..a waffle shop with a beauty parlour (one-stop, mind you, for prom, weddings..etc etc) beside us, and then a LAN shop for my dear on the other side also..

*coughs* then the other shop you were thinking about..that one put a bit further away..can..XDD

So people can eat waffles as they get ready for prom or play LAN~ weeeee...

Haix..Past few days no inspiration to blog..also too tired..now have to go le..get ready for school T.T Wish me luck for the presentation~~~


Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Humph

After a chat with Karen, I finally have decided on what to get for him on our official 'we're together as boyfriend-girlfriend' day - which is 21st May for all the uninformed XDD

But now I dunno what to get for Karen~ TT.TT Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo


Well, okay, so I've already gathered like 0.05% of her supposed presents, but I haven't had time to even go down to the warehouse at her place to see if they sell her supposed presents. Next week is E-learning though, so I sure got time de. SURE GOT TIME DE~~

XDD Last minute chiong presents, hooo~

N/m.

I still have to go down to Ikea to get the container for my dear's present =X Not that I'm an avid supporter of Ikea, just that I like their containers better, unless I see a nicer one out there la...And must not be too ex also (opps =X) coz...*shrugs* I also on budget =X

Now just waiting to go class... very tired.

~

I guess now that after reaching 7.34m after so long (like almost 1 month), it has taken a lot out of me. I feel so disenchanted with the game le...I feel like seriously giving up, and going for HOTD4 now le. TC4 demands so many things - and I'm not complaining about the hand, wrist, arm, finger pains. It demands so many factors that I feel I can't control anymore - accuracy, time, 1H2B..I feel like those have already been perfected enough for me...

What else can TC4 do for me?? TC4 needs so much time and effort spent before reaching my ideal score - yes, I guess I could reveal my ideal score of 7.5m now - it's just...so far away from me. There is no one else playing TC4 alongside me for score le. Even Sifu has stopped due to faulty machines.

Not that I'm blaming him. I'm just feeling all sad and sorrowful for myself because I'm like, the only person still stuck on TC4. Maybe it's because it's my first game that I really play for score.

*sighs*

So now I'll leave TC4, and move back to HOTD4, I guess. I just feel so >.< about TC4 le...No more no more!

I am free of TC4 now~~

Or as free as I can get...I would still want to train TC4 for it's good points - like training RoF and reflexes =D


Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Joy

And while it wasn't joy without misgivings, I am glad.

Monday after FYP went home to dump laptop and bags, eat break-lun and watched Yakitate!! Japan..then after that went Bugis to meet up with Dear and Ivern~

Their DotA game so long de~ I nearly fainted XDD Then after that we play one game...the kuku person steal my LR =(

Never mind, I play Sven again...not owning la...coz I tio everyone KS...the overall noise of the LAN @ Bugis was...painful T.T Even before my own game started, I was already grinding my teeth against the noise, creating..more pain for myself T.T

After that, they go and smoke (haha got one uncle come and ask them got a cig or not) then Ivern left...Then we hungry so we go eat at foodcourt (I was like huh, got foodcourt meh? Then I remembered the one below Seiyu -.-''')

After eating we went back to the arcade at Bugis, thinking that I wanted to play a game of TC4 VH..then end up, might as well pei Dear to White Sands XD

Okay so we happily go White Sands and then play 2 games of TC4 Link Play~ Weee long time no play Link Play le~ (we played as per normal, then switched sides XD) Then Dear also wanted to chiong for 8m wahahahah XDDDD Weeeeee Soon he will be converted to the Score side...Soon we will rule the universe together!! WAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH...


WAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!


*coughs* okay so now that my insanity has passed...We played 2 games (obviously second game was not as good because we were simply too tired) then he rushed home..coz his mom told him to go home early..end up he no dinner TT.TT

I went to DBG to play a game of TC4 (which sux btw coz my arm was still hurting from the game of HOTD4 on Saturday T.T) Then nothing much le lor..Just ate KFC then went home..Then slept..


All in all I enjoyed my time with my dear =) Guess I need a gamer boy to keep up with me wor =X Wednesday..most likely going to SLS~ Check out the drum controller~

And no dear..not only for you wor =P

Haix~ Not that I even know where's 'north-east' of Sony Square~ *faints*


Monday, May 14, 2007

Wrong

Saturday: Went to makeover with my aunt and cousin. Great fun XD Though I couldn't wait to get out of there...so hot...but everything was great and organised (can you imagine an all-female stampede in a room that's about 2 SP computer labs' big?) and well..I'm happy. Just..nothing much to say wor..


Sunday: Work..ran to JEC to get a cake since we accidentally sold off the customer's cake..Apart from that, sold off all our cakes by 5pm =X


I still dunno what to get for him on 21st wor. Haix. Really cracking my mind...Then I just feel...sad after what he commented about. How do I get closer to him? I dunno how to talk? What to talk about? >.<

I feel so scared also; it's something new for me..I know we both are stressed, and I don't want this relationship to make us more stressed..It's not meant to be that way..





Thursday, May 10, 2007

Sick...again!

=(( Sick again...probably too much sugar (like the other time with the ondeh ondeh)

Haix!! But I went for facial either way...Then now just sleeping at home, trying to get well enough for Friday + Saturday lor..haix...body very achy..=( Eyes also very watery, nose very melting (a personal joke between me and Cik Dah~)

Haix =(

I miss a lot of things I guess =( Never mind..i wanna go sleep again le...Me is a piggy~ weee


Tuesday, May 8, 2007

YES!!!!

BREAK SCORE!!!!!!

7.34m!! XDD

28.37 minutes!! XD

71.6% accuracy!! XD

w00t!

I didn't know and expect to break score yesterday, but after S3A2, I KNEW I just had to break score else I'd just PENGZ and die. XD 6.5+m after S3A2 ended..w00tz XDD

I've been quite happy with my gameplay..while my overall score hasn't been too good for the past few games, most area scores for my Prologue, S1A1, S3A1 and S3A2 have been improved. Caves area...still a little shaky, but I can see some improvement =D

Weeee I'm so happy now..Weeee!!

Hee~ Can't wait for Saturday! Makeover! =X Wednesday hopefully after school can go for facial =D

I'm glad that I skipped a lecture yesterday (7/05/07)..Coz hanging out with my dear rocked! Hee~ Love you =)

Now rushing ELIT (I think it's finished, but I just feel something's missing) and doing the practical for WEBS~ XDD

I rocked SMAD's coding yesterday too! w00tz


Monday, May 7, 2007

Sian

As copied from Sifu..

I guess it's the onslaught of PMS - Post, mind you, not Pre.

Feeling quite..down because of certain things, but not listed in any order below (I guess that's why they call it an unordered list!! XD)

• TC4 - everytime I play it, it feels like I'm improving, especially my Prologue and S1A1 score...apart from that nothing much else has changed...I'm not annoyed, I'm just..disenchanted le. I wish I could break score. I've come so close now. I feel as if maybe..maybe I should just drop my 'ideal score' to a lower one, so that I can be satisfied.
  
  But I can never be satisfied. People with power want one thing - more power. It's so...frustrating that I can never play a proper game and BREAK SCORE.
  
  And then I've thought of wearing a T-shirt that says 'Back off when I'm TC4-ing' or something like that. 'STFU when I'm gaming' is good too XD
  
  
• School work - its..sort of like, catching up with me. I feel like, for the first time, I've got to do HOMEWORK in Poly. I feel..wierdified XD Nothing much to rant about though. I'd just have to do it!
  
  
• Love life - This one, I can't and won't elaborate. I guess I'm just confused, because dear sweet one..You're really more like my first love, you know? Me and my ex..it wasn't much of anything. It was a relationship based on impulses. But it's like what I talked with you the other night/morning. I hope he is waiting for me, as I am waiting for him..
  
  
• Friends - Nothing much to complain, just that...once more I feel wierdified.

All in all, thanks for listening to me rant, gurl..I really appreciate it...And I really, really pray that he is waiting for me...and in a good way, not the bad way...

Time to do FYP

XD

Sunday, May 6, 2007

Selfishness

Wednesday!

Wednesday!

Wednesday!

XD

Only you and I, okie? =D


All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration 

Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love 

And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end...


Sweet love..I love you so much =)


Friday, May 4, 2007

Dancing

Ah well, it's been a long time since I posted something more philosophical..

So let's make it an EVEN LONGER time!! w00tz XD

Now Friday le~ I waiting to go school only.. Dunno what to wear, and cannot dun wear anything XD

Saturday managed to change my work shift to morning! Thank you Aunty LK!!! =DD

Started on FMP! Season 3 yesterday~ So kuku the thing load finish but cannot play finish T.T =((

Saturday shopping with Ren and CK, Liping! Then all dinner together with my dear as well!w00tness! BIG surprise for Liping!! weeeeee

Dun ask me why hor. I feel very bad, that's all I can say le! xD

So Ren, you and CK got special mission le wor!

SMS you the time must also 'roger' here 'roger' there, 'copy' here 'copy' there XDDD

Hee~ Saturday will be a good day!

And now only 17 more days!! w00tz


Thursday, May 3, 2007

Cramps!

Yes! It's that time of the month again!

So like, as my dear has said, wear military-grade reinforced armour! Or even better, go into the world of TC4 and steal the High-Tech Reinforced Armour (HTRA)!!

Okay, so I'm officially a bit crazy.

Saturday gonna get a new pair of SHOES!~ Wedges! To match my duster..coat..dress..thingy! Then probably hang out with my dear again! =D

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

But you know what wedges mean! No more TC4!

*internal conflict*

But wait! I can take off my shoes!!

But take off shoes very cold!!

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~~

Oh well, I guess I still will be playing TC4 till I reach my ideal score. No, it's not the 8 million that HZH has attained, but something else.

Something more? Nooooooooooooooooooo...I think I go insane le.

Haix...Off to watch FMP! Fumoffu!


Wednesday, May 2, 2007

Yeahness!

As copied from Liping~

Yesterday (Tuesday) was a good day!...Well, as good as it can get without my dear Josh around~ =(

You must take care wor...haix!! Weather also not good this few days... T.T

Haix..So yesterday morning work with Ru! Cleared Trip 1's stock really quickly! Yay for us! XDD Trip 2 so little but still quite messy. We sold many cakes! =D Then left all the 1kg ones for Aunty LK to sell =X Aunty LK also bought us ice creams! Uncle Ian say the drink I buy very nice! XDD FruitTree's Apple Juice and Aloe Vera bits! XDD

Then I beat waffles also~ So happy..so carefree somemore. We thought sure got crowd, but end up dun have!! XDDD

And I think the best news of the day is that Cik Dah is not leaving us! YES! YES! YES! *dances*

After work, chiong to DBG..to..play...Big Sweet Land...again!!

This time Sifu and I = funny XDD I saw a B+1 seat with PiyoPiyo as prize, so I thought, eh maybe we play a bit and raise the bar, see if anyone will come to play, then we can go KS! So end up, dun have. XD We go and play lor like that. Then I was on a roll, every credit got sweets tio checker! Yes!! So about 3-4 rounds all got get bar increase!

Then the best thing is that Sifu play and tio 3 for the last 3 bars inclusive of JP!! YES!! SIFU! You are my lucky star!! XDDD

So I asked for a BLUE PIYOPIYO! Give my dear!! =D

But then when I wanted to leave for Yishun, he sms say not feeling well =( Then I sadded..Cannot meet and give him the Piyo..

After I sent Sifu to MRT then I went back arcade (deciding to play either BSL or TC4)...to my horror no one upped the bar at BSL...okay, up is got up a bit..but not by much so I was T.T-ing over there. Then after that, I went to camp at TC4. After 2 guys link play, then got another pair. Then I SIAN is because they keep spamming credits =(( Never mind, I was like 'YES!!!' when I saw they no more credit le XD

Then suddenly the guy beside me say to me, "Hey P2 is open, you can go play le" Then I say "Err no thanks....I only play P1..." Pause "The P2 gun also quite whacked out..So not much use playing it."

Then finally the P1 guy also die le. Then I CHIONG to play. Play finish, got a higher score than my 1st game of the day. But never break score la.

The guy was quite..impressed, quoting from him. I got some misgivings about him but *shrugs* mehhh

After that I go home lor. Now at school, waiting for MAN TOU to come and kpkb =X Haix..Faint~

Okay, I better start on the ELIT assignment =X

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