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Thursday, June 28, 2007

Introduction

Yesterday, Regrets, Ice-san, FE-san and me met up at Bugis (albeit a bit late in the day XD) and we had like, lots of fun! Regrets saw a classic, old-school fighting game so he went off to mash buttons while I was raping zombies with FE-san. While we both OCCed the game, we did not play it very well T.T

After that, Terry came along and we found HSJ busy raping zombies too! Regrets was at the LAN but it seemed like he didn't enjoy it..Sorry wor...

So in the end we all went to eat dinner together. Before we dined, I played 2 rounds of Outrun2sp..1st round nearly completed it T.T but the F50 is kind of hard for me to control T.T

The 2nd time I completed, using Enzo Ferrari. I like the control it gives me, but it feels a bit too hard to feel the turn sometimes, BUT the control is something I really like. I probably will start training with the Enzo now XDD

When Regrets finished his smoke, we walked around Bugis Junction, then I remembered to ask him to pei me to Wallet Shop to find a wallet that he liked.

I BUYING FOR HIS BIRTHDAY MAH!

Then I told him to just let me know which wallet he liked a lot XD He set his eye on this Billabong one, steel-blue-gray with the denim effect..inside can take out a part for holding cards de!! So cute! XDD

So I kept asking him 'You really like this one mah??' Then lucky not too expensive, I brought enough money too~

But of course I not so kuku to buy it in front of him without another guy's opinion la XD

So after dinner, Regrets and I walked around Cold Storage just to relax, coz the rest of the guys took so long to eat finish (all you S.WOLS de la). Then after that we go back arcade to find them. I told Regrets to play 1 more round of his fighting game la, coz actually I wanted excuse to go buy the wallet.

FE-san accompanied me to see the wallet and give opinion la XD I was like 'uhh dunno how to give Regrets leh...' Then he say 'Buy le, you 2 straight go home' coz he knew that I knew that Regrets was a bit bored also.

So okay. I bought the wallet, then we went back to the arcade; I told Regrets after his game we go le la XD

Then he send me home; we talked quite a bit at the playground, then I give him the present lor! XDD

He so funny, said, 'Wah. You really buy arh.' XDDDD Then I said, 'Walau. Scully you on that day get a lot of presents, then who carry for you? Me arh?'

XDD

SO FUN~ I enjoyed my time with all of you guys...And thanks wor, Regrets, for accompanying me the whole day even though you found being at the arcade the whole day a bit of a 'no-life' XDD

bounced at 11:30 AM.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Knowledge is Power

I wish to let everyone who is reading my blog know that you cannot hurt me so easily.

It doesn't matter if you twist the facts, twist the reality, because I will always speak it, simply and truthfully.

It doesn't matter if you imply to others that I was in the wrong, even though I was not.

Because while it all depends on our own point of view, you will one day be exposed. And when day comes, I will make sure nothing is hidden, because you have hurt me enough just by being a coward.

You are a coward and I pity you, because you would never know the feelings I'm experiencing now.

But if there's one thing that makes me extremely angry, is that you try to sour the friendships of the one I am close with. You, being the coward you are, hide behind your lies.

STAND AND DELIVER.

And for the rest who have said my words are rou mah, I pray that you guys will wake up one day, because I realised that THEY ARE MY TRUE FEELINGS.

Some friends you people are. When your friend has a girlfriend, the least you could do is to be happy for him. Yet you call him and read my blog to him, laughing away. What were you thinking, is what I want to know.

Me, I'm simply asking you to

GROW UP.

Or maybe, did you think that since he has been alone for a long time, this relationship is doomed to failure? It is hard enough without trying to please you all; shouldn't you support him?

Oh noes. Did you think that because he isn't good looking, no girl can like him? THEN YOU ARE SERIOUSLY WRONG. His girlfriend loves him, a hell lot (sorry Karen, but it IS true and I cannot hide it), even though there are many things that keep coming in between them - life, work, school, parents and friends. Worst of all is that the 'friends' component is PART OF WHAT IS MAKING THEIR RELATIONSHIP SO DIFFICULT.

Some friends you have, my friend. Instead of being happy for you, they make fun of the girl, they listen to her ex, and they turn against you..

~

Ah well, I've ranted enough. Today going out with Regrets, Ice-san and FE-san..yay! All 3 bodyguards XDDD

bounced at 8:20 AM.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

!!!!!

Monday went to school to KELONG and find out that there isn't any school coz is MST week. SIAN.

So I go DBG wait for Regrets to come down too (he got a client to meet @ DBG ma)..played 2 games of TC4 there..Sux la..now TC4 is right beside WCCF, near a corner, but the music all that still quite distracting, especially WCCF's beep-beep-beep when the players mash the buttons XDD

So never mind la..I played 1 warm up game, then another when Regrets came (he say he wanna watch mah, so I play la) 2nd game was 100k better than the first but quite kelong XD

Then we go walk around PS while waiting for his client. When his client came we all talked and went to KFC to settle the signing of the documents..I just listened mostly, but I also help to calculate the costs and explain some of the things la~

Still remembered 1 line he said about me!! XDDDDDD

Then after that he send me home (he actually wanted to bring me to eat Korean hotplate but it was quite late) and we ate at my house's Kopitiam..chatted a lot during the course of the day...ah so contented!

XD

Wednesday meeting up with Regrets, Ice-san and FE-san. XDD Will definitely blog about it!

bounced at 12:17 PM.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

...

Okay, so since like everyone said my last blog entry was so ROU MAH..my only reply is that it's my blog, it's my opinion, it's my life. To me it isn't mushy, or RM, but a vague expression of how I feel, felt..whatever.

Right now I don't know if you're really angry at me. I hope not, because I didn't mean to compare you to him. I guess if you want to go, then you're free to go - since that what you've been saying to me too.

I'm sorry...

bounced at 9:37 PM.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Attraction

I feel so comfortable with you..even our silences are contented pauses.

We never ran out of things to talk about yesterday.

I feel so contented with you.

I think I like you very much.

I want to know more about you.

And already I miss talking to you.

I can't explain this attraction.

I simply..like you.

~

Yesterday, 22nd June 2007..was wonderful. It's the first time I could hold a conversation with a guy for so long. And it was...like a date XDD I'm grateful to you for drawing me out..

I hope next time we meet up we can talk for a bit again..I just hope I don't make the same mistakes with you again..

bounced at 1:53 PM.

Friday, June 22, 2007

Now what?

I don't know what to do..I feel like, right now, I'm simply existing, not even living a life.

However, yesterday I met up with Legary, Regrets, YQ and her BF, and Avan..chiong dota, ondeh ondeh and mini choc eclairs..w00tz man..

So now..after what I know..it was perhaps better that I didn't know about it though..

My life's a wreck now..

What problem did you find with me? What was wrong with my attitude? Couldn't you not even tell me?

bounced at 1:00 AM.

Saturday, June 16, 2007

OMGG

Haven't been updating the past few days..I'm not gonna bother to blog about my Malacca trip because it was just too boring...Not really worth remembering or mentioning...

The past few days have been a frenzy of lazing around, DotA (until 4am in the morning with Legary and Regrets), TC4 (not too good...7.29m with balanced time and accuracy), Fantastic 4, HOTD4 training (solo and tag)..

Lazing around - need I explain? Have been going to work too la XDD

DotA - Rawking! Played with Legary and Regrets till 4am on Friday night..w00tz..fell asleep while owning siak =X

TC4 - *shrugs* played @ DBG before the 4 of us went to watch F4 XDD

F4 - WAS GREAT~ I think it was damn sad lor...T.T

HOTD4 training - trained tag with FE @ Suntec for 2+ games..OCCed both times and with so-so scores...We'll be training even more! Even though it's only for FE-san to show off to the XMMs and to get their number =X

Guess that's all in my life right now..next week gonna be working like mad..hopefully I'll be able to squeeze in some time to meet up with Terry (train TC4), FE-san (train HOTD4), Legary + Regrets (train ambush-escaping with ondeh ondeh as well as to DotA)

And maybe I'd still have enough time to mope, groan and moan about how I didn't get that cute guy's number (even though you did offer, FE-san, for which I'm grateful XD)

Ah well. Time to get a blog ready~

bounced at 11:45 PM.

Monday, June 11, 2007

I'm back!

ME IS BACK FROM MALACCA!!

Will be bloggin about it soon..now I getting ready for facial le =X XDDDD

So glad to be back from that resort, which has a really tiny arcade...The only shooting games I found there were TC1, 2x GunBlade, and a GunBullet machine if I remember correctly..SO BORING..!

But I made up for my boredom by playing Paintball (hell fun!) and archery~

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Apart from that, I really missed you guys =)

bounced at 1:31 PM.

Thursday, June 7, 2007

Ice skating!

Weeeeee!

Yesterday, Wednesday, went JEC to check if there's a CnC3 competition - not that I was good enough to play. Just checking it out for Ice-san XD

End up, DUN HAVE..totally like sadded la. So I went to ice-skate from 1-5 like that, waiting for Ice-san to finish school, go home change and then meet at JEC XD

After we met up, we went to watch all the XDDs (Xiao Di Di-s) play CnC3...one of them queued up like 30 flame tanks and then rushed them from his corner of the map to the other corner (NOD campaign)...all died.

zzzz then when he won, he go start another campaign. Ice-san and I SIAN LOR, then we go up to Zone X there, wanting to play TC4 - end up the card reader not working, and the ppl take so long to come and repair, I said 'never mind, we tag HOTD4'

Okay! Finally OCC~ even though is with Ice-san la~ ^.^ Very happy!

After that, we chiong downstairs..heng I saw one seat open, I rush and sit down on it coz Ice-san on the phone. Then he tried his Scrin clear strat XDDDD

After all that, we went to meet his friends at library, then had dinner (hahahahah the aunty forgot my teh-peng...) and then went back to JEC to play a bit more. Got a new guy on the scoreboards...YH. dunno who he is..but I sian when I saw I got 3rd lor...sian sian sian. N/m. While I playing, Ice-san DW hotd4! gj man..apart from the bugs all that... XDDD

Anyway, you stole my crowd la.

XDDDD

Then I rush to Popular to get my headphones...HENG I got the very last set...I was searching and searching...all is Skype sets lar (all with mics de..I didnt' want that type..) FINALLY found the ones I wanted...so heng~

Hee~ Going to Afamosa tomorrow~ So exciting...not...XD

Won't be blogging for the next few days but I'll try if they have an Internet connection! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ All take care, okay!!

bounced at 12:21 PM.

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

Fun @ Ikea~!

Well, yesterday, we had fun @ Ikea Queensway~

Junnie, Pei Shan, Desmond, Stevanus, Suraj, Alwin and me went after school to Ikea in Desmond's van (happy sliding fun times!) to eat the delicious meatballs...

I missed hanging out in a group like that..T.T We exchanged a lot of jokes, a lot of coarse remarks about the food, although it was superb! After which we went UMD hunting at Queensway...I didn't bring enough money so we just looked around and around..and around..and around..

Saw a lot of nice clothes, and finally found a game shop (though not the one that my brother's friend recommended XD)...went home empty coz I just didn't bring enough money, and I couldn't use Nets coz I didn't put money into my bank account XDD

Ah well..It was fun! I enjoyed my time XD Today will be going ice skating after school..hopefully Ice-san finishes school early and then can join me la~ =X Then we'll be going to his CnC3 competition..rock on!!

bounced at 7:45 AM.

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

PARRRTAAYYYY

And so, I didn't make the cut for the DotA team..Feeling glad and strangely dissatisfied at the same time XDD

I guess, LR is a really bad choice to play in Draft matches..first thing everyone aim me T.T

Oh well..it was cheap fun for..3 hours and 20 minutes..$5 XDD

Before I met up with GongZu and the rest, I was at DBG TC4 P1 (I mean, it's like, typical, right? I couldn't possibly be around DBG without actually heading into Zone X to PLAY TC4..right??) Had a better score (I'm inclined to think it's because it's a better gun, though the pedal was really bad and loose) so I was quite happy XDD At the same time felt quite sad coz..not many games are at DBG le..now it all looking so empty! T.T

Humph. So like, it's decided la. Party at Ice-san's house next weekend!!!! XDD I'll be bringing my guinea pig there, coz I don't trust my brothers to remember to feed it..

Date: 15th to 17th (FE and I going 1 day early to settle stuff)

Venue: Ice-san's house

So things to bring to the stayover:

Guinea pig - I wonder how I'll bring such a big cage to Ice's house..got space mah..
Guinea pig food
Me!!
PSP - and all the other paraphenalia
HDD - to kope stuff from everyone XD
Clothes enough for 5 days
Bath towel
Face towel
Toiletries

toothbrush
toothpaste (wanna share, anyone?)
pads (hopefully no more period le la!)
comb
hair band
hair ties
soap (I bringing bar soap - can share, as long as you guys wash it clean after you use it)
shampoo
conditioner

Money (estimated costs) - total: 125 -- bringing about 50, dumping 300 in bank

10 for movie - Fantastic 4 and the Silver Surfer!
40 for food - for all meals, all days
30 for BBQ - hopefully got, can share~
20 for drinks (eh-heh-heh-heh-heh..)
10 for transport (just in case)
15 for gifts

Then the rest, I dunno what else to bring le XDDD

Anyway..this coming weekend, 8th to 10th, I won't be in SG! I think we're going to Malacca...I'm not really sure, I don't really care anyway XDD

I JUST WANNA TRAIN MY HOTD4 NOW. NOW NOW NOW!

Hrm.

I JUST WANNA TRAIN MY TC4 NOW. NOW NOW NOW!!!

Wonder if I can run back to Ghim Moh to get hot waffles for everyone...mmmm..waffles...I haven't eaten you guys in like...forever...mmm...Waffles..with chocolate sundae syrup...mmm..

Hopefully I wouldn't need to bring my guinea pig to the party..I just realised I cannot bring him in the small cage - I mean, I could, but then I would need to get Ice-san to fence off a part of his house just for the piggy~

SHHHOOO MAH FAN!!! T.T

Oh well~

bounced at 9:10 AM.

Monday, June 4, 2007

Back to Basics

Back, back, back to basics!

The basics of what? Written in the order as they come to mind...

Basics of shooting games
Basics of button mashing for the PSP
Basics of loving
Basics of DotA
Basics of teamwork
Basics of being a pro at being a noob
Basics of being in a chalet
Basics of being a friend

So far, that's good. The reason why I'm writing this is actually coz I'm going back to the basics of learning DotA soon, hopefully.

Today I will be 'auditioning' for an all-girls team (guys, stop drooling XD) that plays DotA. They are joining CAPL and need one more member, so...I hope I do well!

Cut my hair on Saturday - Oh yes, Saturday. We went to Siam Kitchen at Suntec to celebrate my grandpa's birthday; all of us, and the choir members. Had such a great time, with great god-brothers of brother, with the choir members, with Kong Kong, with Mum, with Ma, with the food, with the children (I feel so old just watching them T.T) etc etc...

I guess the best time was when my bro and I presented the angpow to my grandpa. He look so stunned la, please XDDD

After the celebration, which ended around 5+, I went off to Bugis, intending to find Sifu, Jul-di, Ice and FE. Humph. The HOTD4 machine still not fixed. We all went to National Library to discuss the forums and logos - to a lot of laughter and plenty of 'shh!' XDD I guess we didn't really make much progress, but I guess we ironed out some things like who the forums are for, the T-shirt, the logo...all was very good, I guess.

Then Sifu and Jul-di had to leave early, so we chiong back to Bugis to take dinner. Watery duck porridge!! Yucks~

I went back to the arcade with Ice-san and FE-san. Ice and I played tag-team TC4, while Joel went to watch OR2SP. Halfway through the game, FE-san said bb and went home. Typlo-kor was there all the time ya. XDD

After the tag team game, I took a while to rest and then soloed TC4 as usual. Lousy score. Humph. There were 2 guys that I'd notice were watching me. One stood damn bloody close please? Good thing Ice-san and Typlo-kor were there, they help me stare at the guy and made him siam. I stare at him also. Ice-san told me the guy like wanted to touch me like that, damn pervert la!!!!

>.<>

Never mind. The other guy I talking about is Terry. He was playing TC4 P2 (H) while I was playing TC4 P1 (VH). Not bad, not bad..He can OCC till Final Battle. And I saw his score also not bad - could have ended with a low 5m if he didn't die ya.

Also, Ice-san told me that Terry pointed at me during my game and gave a thumbs-up sign. He also did the same to Typlo-kor and Ice-san when they played their own games la. XDDD

Seriously, he isn't a bad player, just that the gun was seriously giving problems. But I'd like to see him on a VH machine first.

After all that, Ice-san and I went home (haha..thanks man~). It was a good day! I guess everytime I head to the arcade I will be wearing my coat now. I like the attitude that I can pull off with it - anger, angst, darkness, attitude, 'i'm the best there is', 'take it or leave it'...the essential core of Maya that is lost everytime she lets someone into her heart.

Next goal for TC4:

2 hands, 2 guns;
2 feet, 2 pedals;
1 brain, 2 hemispheres;
2 hemispheres, 1 mind.

Retain the essential insanity that is Maya.

I feel..something now. I now know I can start to feel again, I can start loving my friends again. Sorry for all the times in the past 2 weeks when I have not taken care and loved all of you...

Like what Ren said...I must be selfish at times even though I sell buns..

bounced at 9:35 AM.

Friday, June 1, 2007

Madness and Insanity

I touch(ed) madness and insanity when...

I heard the words you said to me
I hear the words you did not say to me
I dual-wielded TC4 at Bugis
I touched 6 million in TC4
I found out that I loved you
I found out that even though I loved you, there's a part of me which still loves you
I got drunk
I did not see you for a week
I am at Bugis
I see you in school, Bugis, White Sands or some other random place in SG
I know that you're somewhere smoking away your life
my legs automatically walk me to the cafe @ SP
I wonder to myself what went wrong
I wonder to myself if it was me - was I not good enough, was I too badly shaped..

All the above (there were others, but I just didn't have the inspiration to list them down) make me go nuts, make me go crazy whenever I think about it. I guess you aren't reading, that you're really...'Away' now...take care. It's been really great fun while it lasted..And...and..I wish you good luck and success in all your endeavours..

bounced at 9:36 PM.

Strength