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"We sail within a vast sphere, ever drifting in uncertainty, driven from end to end."
-Blaise Pascal
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Passion
When I play DotA with my friends, I enjoy it more. Probably because of the yelling of "OMG! YOU KS ME!", "WAHAHAHAHAHHAHA I KS YOU!", "OMG KS!!", and the occassional "Omg. Hero missing you all never say!" or "Hero missing from top. Mid care!"
I really like it. And to listen to "M-M-M-MONSTER KILL!" thundering from 5 different computers (or maybe up to 10 if it was inhouse) at the same time gives a really feel-good feeling.
Not to mention the better teamwork when we don't have to spend time typing.
Really hope that your pay will come in soon, and at least we won't be deprived of such fun next month.
>.<
bounced at 12:19 PM.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
If Tomorrow Never Comes...
...Would he know how much I love him?
"Remember to sms me when you reach home, okay?"
Without looking at him, she nodded and mumbled a reply, "Ya, okay." She felt him hugging her tightly before letting her go. A strange sense of melancholy enveloped her as she slowly walked away.
Of course he has a meeting with his friend, and he has no money to send me home right now. So it's okay..it's okay.. She tried to re-assure herself over and over again as she walked to the bus-stop across and down the road.
Hearing the familiar rumble of a bus' engine, she turned to check if it was the bus she could take home. Goodness knew how long she'd have to wait if she missed that only bus.
OMG. She started running, cursing herself mentally for walking so slowly before. Without noticing, she started to cross a side-road when bright lights flared on her left a moment before she felt weightlessness.
'WA! 77kg! You catching up with me le!' She heard his voice teasing her about her newly accquired weight. 'Yes! Let's go for 85kg! Next time you come my house, must weigh!' She smiled dreamily at the recollection, her hands reaching out towards his face.
Bright lights came again, but this time it was accompanied with a horn blaring. The weightlessness seemed to continue as she felt her body moving in a different direction this time.
And then all went dark. She could only hear his voice, calling her name anxiously. Her lips moved to answer him, but she could not hear her own voice apart from the thoughts formed in her head.
~
"Remember to sms me when you reach home, okay?"
She worried him. She was too quiet the whole day, and damn, it was his fault. He knew she was worried about something - most likely it was about the fact that both of them were dead broke.
He hugged her tightly against him, knowing that it wouldn't help her tension, but needing to make sure she was as okay as she could get. He heard her mumbled reply of "Ya, okay" and then let her go. He watched as she walked away, making sure she crossed the road to the other side safely before he turned away to walk to his own bus-stop. He was kind of late for his meeting with his other friends as it is.
He saw the only bus that she could take home trundle past him and fervently he hoped that she would catch it. It was then he heard the screech of brakes and the blaring of horns a few seconds later.
He screamed as he turned and his eyes registered the scene. He had recognised her body, as limp as a rag doll's, being flung into the air by the car that came screeching out of the side road, and then as her body was hit by another car from the main road.
Rushing across the road, he pushed past the already forming crowd. "We're like bulldozers, you know?" She had commented once. That thought formed tears in his eyes as he cradled her mangled body, calling out her name desperately, willing her to be alive.
"Some body call an ambulance!" He rasped at the onlookers, tears streaming down his face. "Someone call the police!"
Unbelievably, she was smiling, and as he watched, her lips formed the words, "I love you".
bounced at 9:10 AM.
Monday, August 27, 2007
Poison V
THEY RAWKED! XD
Here's the video of their dance. I'd have to say that it was (like what Ice-san said) enticing..And really sexy. Good choice of songs =)
Jia you!
bounced at 8:47 AM.
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Why?
Why is this happening to me?
I approached him, thinking of asking him to join us in playing for score - but I guess that's a choice each person makes.
And now he's like, so damn sticky. Every weekend: "Are you coming to Bugis?"
My god.
I wish I didn't approach him in the first place.
Regretting it now.
And if you're reading this (I hope not, because then I'd be really scared), you should know that you aren't anyone special to me. It was lucky that I was not in an extreme bad mood when you called and straightaway said "Where are you?"
You are not my bf; Regrets is.
You don't have to meet up with me every Saturday unless.
UNLESS.
Unless you are thinking of chasing me. And if you're trying to woo me, AT LEAST DO IT WITH SOME STYLE.
But I don't think so.
For all our sakes, I hope we just misunderstood you.
bounced at 2:11 PM.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
2nd Month =)
And we've made it into our second month!
Our first month made it look so unlikely that our relationship would be 2 months old but I'm truly glad that we hung on =)
We spent the day slacking at Regrets' place. Morning after I'd made the ginko-nut-barley-beancurd-skin dessert for the peeps at Prima, I rushed to his place and slacked for like 10 minutes before he told me he was meeting a friend for breakkie. So I was like 'omg, okay let's go, we're lateeee'
So the 3 of us went to East Coast Food Village..mornings there are really quiet and peaceful..When I grow up, I wanna stay near the beach! XD
After that we went back home and slacked. Watched TV most of the day...Chinese dramas FTW XDDD
I was also cooking the ginko-nut-barley-beancurd-skin dessert at his place. Although, I think this time I cooked it for too long..the barley was giving out a malty taste. But it was good overall. XD
"More beancurd skin please" XDDDD
After that, due to cramps, I went home early..We walked to the interchange (stopped briefly for food - now that just makes it sound like it was a long walk, but to tell it truth it couldn't be any longer for the time I wanted to spend with Regrets) and..well, it was hard.
*gets all emo again* It gets harder and harder each time.
bounced at 11:20 AM.
Monday, August 20, 2007
Music
I love music. I don't think I can live without music. It's part of my life since I was young. And while I wasn't the type to have parents that insisted on me having like, violin, piano, ballet etc etc lessons, I learnt about music from home.
I still remember a time when my grandpa would sit me at the piano in their house and play the piano for me to listen to.
I still remember a time when my dad would always turn to 92.4FM and ask me to identify the different instruments used. He would grunt if I was correct, and correct me if I was wrong.
I'm glad to have learnt music this way. I think I appreciate it much more this way.
Everytime I'm on the MRT on my way to meet up with friends, I have to listen to some music. When I play DotA, there should preferbly be some music in the background. When I study (do I actually study? XD) I need music to block out the rest of the noises of my environment. When I work, I need music to hum to, or else it'll just get all quiet and scary.
I find that music describes me and my feelings. Right now, simply just feeling emo listening to my own blog music. But when I head over to Ren's blog, Franklin's Until You Come Back to Me simply gives me a feel-good vibe that makes me want to start dancing. I feel sexy all over, especially with songs that have a good bass..sort of like, makes me want to curl up with Regrets and sleep.
And when I listen to Bullet For My Valentine, I just get all emo and want to yell out like they do in the song Tears Don't Fall.
Can't live without music, can't breathe without it.
Music explains me.
bounced at 10:49 AM.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
I will be free
FREEDOM!
Well, in about 4 hours' time, that is. My exam is at 9am (for which I've only done the online quizzes since my computer is being a bitch and cannot read the PPT files for lecture). 11am it will all end. But then I will leave earlier, because I am TEH MAYA XDD
The past few days have been great. Simply going out to DotA with Regrets gives me a certain kind of pleasure, although we have lost like 3 out of 5 games - due to, obviously, my noobish-ness in playing -random. XDD
I'm still currently emoing, if you're wondering. I keep thinking of the last time I saw him..you could say that the image just surfaces in my mind all the time. I don't know why, but I felt that I should have suspected something was going to be wrong with the way he shrank away from me. Perhaps, knowing that for sure, I should have just called him up the next day, told him that he was bad and then left him. Then it would have not been so heartbreaking.
That aside, 6 more days to Regrets and I de 2nd month. =) And I'm still waiting for Silent Hill to come out, as well as news of UGC'07 XDDDD
Currently listening to Bullet for my Valentine's Tears Don't Fall on FE-san's friendster. I feel like screaming out like in the song (nearly did, then I remembered it's like 7.30 in the morning XDD) so I can get rid of the burden of 'What was wrong with my attitude?'
Would he hold me if he knew my shame?
bounced at 7:16 AM.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Happy Birthday to ME~
SHO EGO~
XDDD
Anyway, my actual birthday of 1008 was quite bad coz actually planned to spend the whole day with Regrets T.T End up I had an..unforseen EXAM on that day, so NO CHOICE.
DAmN. XD
NEVER MIND? I met up with everyone (or..well, most of the people I wanted to come along) on Saturday! Ate mala steamboat at Chinatown..we had really great fun and laughs!
I think my best present this year was Karen's and Liping's jacket =D THANK YOU~
I was pleasantly surprised that HSJ got me a pair of earrings though. And I love the earrings that you guys got for me tooo~~ *eeeeyaahhhh*
After the dinner, went to Bugis to chiong one game of HOTD4. Woo hoo~ Managed to survive through some CLOSE CALLS XD
The XDD was damn bad..LUCKY I came in time to save FE XDD
The Sky-Dragon rush was scary too! T.T
I really enjoyed myself, playing hostess and what not...Thank you all who have made my birthday so fun, so exciting~ =)))))
XDDDD
bounced at 10:48 AM.
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
101th post~
llalalalalalla
Hopefully can pass FYP!
XD
Wednesday! Delivering cakes + facial + final final FYP presentation + returning of laptops!
FUN!
NOT!
I miss you, Regrets.
bounced at 12:58 AM.
Monday, August 6, 2007
!!!!!!!!!!!
BABY BUNNIES!
OMG?!
SO CUTE?!
EEEEEEEEEYAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!
Now all I need to do is to treat them like they are Ming vases, get a cage, waterbottle and food for them.
They are like, uber fragile. And I thought MMT3rd was fragile enough. ZZZZZ
So scary. XD
bounced at 10:44 AM.
Saturday, August 4, 2007
My god.
I haven't blogged in like, forever.
Okay, so the past few days have been..a mix of slacking, work, going to get present for my boss, school work, going out with Regrets, dotAing with Regrets..
So highlights would be like, giving the present to my boss:
Maya: Mr. Bao*, Happy Birthday!!! Mr. Bao: Eh? Maya: *thrusts the present at him* Mr. Bao: *taking the present* hahahaha wow..thanks..you guys shouldn't have..
*names have been changed to protect Mr. Bao's privacy XDD ehheheheh! +)
Then other highlights would be dotaing at home with Regrets and also meeting up with him for DotA la..
Now just preparing for my birthday party thingy at Chinatown..Thinking of changing this blogskin coz everytime I see Ayashi No Ceres I kind of get emo?
Found a place where I could watch that anime anyway, so I won't be surprised if I suddenly keep getting all emo.
Also because I want a dear friend to come to my birthday party but..I guess he might not be able to make it. T.T I know you're reading my blog, so PLEASE COME...
And also coz it's kind of maddening for me to keep asking my friends to come to my birthday party but some ppl keep saying 'If _____ goes, then I will go'. It's like everything's dependent on this _____ and I'm wondering if I should have just exploded at my good friend with 'SO _____ IS YOUR FRIEND LA, NOT ME?'
I was really that pissed off, you know. 1 person saying the condition was okay, but I'd never expect it from you either.
Well, Regrets, I've learnt my lesson. Next time I will do just that. You guys can't take me for granted anymore.
bounced at 12:51 PM.
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
Aiyah
Lol..kkk I know I haven't been posting in a loooooooooong time. At least 1 week le...SHOOO BUSY.
I've blogged in TheThirdLane so please check it out for the latest post XDD
Ya, I've been hiding there most of the time...XDDD
XDDD
bounced at 8:47 AM.
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The Racer
Maya
Leo
Dragon
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And I don't want the world to see me
I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Strength
Courage, strength, fortitude. Power not arrested in the act of judgement, but passing on to further action, sometimes obstinacy.This is a card of courage and energy.
It represents both the Lion's hot, roaring energy, and the Maiden's steadfast will. The innocent Maiden is unafraid, undaunted, and indomitable. In some cards she opens the lion's mouth, in others she shuts it.
Either way, she proves that inner strength is more powerful than raw physical strength. That forces can be controlled and used to score a victory is very close to the message of the Chariot.
With strength you can control not only the situation, but yourself. It is a card about anger and impulse management, about creative answers, leadership and maintaining one's personal honor. It can also stand for a steadfast friend.
Wishlist
PSP Jewel Door Mod + Skin
Learn to contact juggle professionally
Play DDR well (so that I can lose weight)
Determination in all that I do
Never be hurt again
Be the best at whatever I do Be happy with what I have
Bluetooth headphones
A good laptop bag (preferbly Crumpler =X)
projects Project Racing Devil
Start: 11 Feb 2008
End: None
Description: Constantly improve myself
Status: Ongoing. I will improve myself...I will not fail you guys
Project SSS
Start: 16th March 2008
End: Tentative mid 2009
Description: Being the first, one and only is really tempting. And then there are my personal reasons..
Project Tuning Gay
Start: End 2008
End: ???
Description: Complete dress-up
Status: Got my card liao..time for dress-up
Project Racing Hearts 2
Start: 20th Feb 2008
End: 29th Feb 2008
Description: FT car, complete dress-up and *ahem*
Status: Completed
Project Racing Hearts 1
Start: 16th Feb 2008
End: 16th Feb 2008
Description: Change car appearance to look identical
Status: Completed
Project Setting
Start: 11 Feb 2008
End: 11 Feb 2008
Description: Change parts as needed
Status: Completed
Project Stock
Start: 10 Feb 2008
End: 10 Feb 2008
Description: Change all parts to stock
Status: Completed