Friday, May 30, 2008

A New Me

It's been so long since I've blogged. Life isn't great..but I will make it. I have my friends, I have my bf, I have my spec F..

And I have fever -.-'''

Taking this opportunity to blog some random thoughts...

I guess he doesn't really read this? When I think back to that trying time for me - when I had to make the ultimate decision (well, he wouldn't know about that, eh?) - I have no wish to go back and change. I suppose it's for the better, and that we should stay this way.

And while this new one may not be my eye candy, or even someone I..love in that way.. this new one is someone close to my heart, simply because of that which has passed. I wish to take up the job so that I may protect him, though it may turn out that he will have to protect me in the end.

But I could not let him get hurt, not after what he has told me.

And my darling Rusco...I repeat what I've always told you when your face is all black like that..."There's only space for one in my heart, and right now, it's being occupied by someone who's really big sized..."


Friday, May 16, 2008

Eyes On Me

I haven't been updating here..simply coz I'm not in the mood to update here. My life's..in a mess. I want to play play play, but I know I should get a job. Work first, then play.

And I feel that I'm losing him..I don't feel..anything liao. Where is my beating heart? Everytime I see him..

Will this be a repeat of my past? Or am I just not fated to have someone who will hold me tight when I'm down?

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard

I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy?
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no

I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

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